reflection on life in general
diary,
today is my day off which is nice, but it seems like every time i have a day off i clean my room or the entire house.
i was looking through stuff in my room which i probably don't need anymore, which is why i am going to create an artwork out of them or simply throw them away.
i have sooooo much junk. maybe i'll have a yard sale and sell everything for a dollar or something...
i don't know why but i keep getting depressed even though nothing really bad is happening to me.
maybe it's because of the coffee i drank today or maybe because i haven't eaten anything yet...(it's about 2pm right now)...i kind of want more coffee though. hmmmm...
i also get really pissy towards blair when i shouldn't be. i sort of feel sorry that he has to deal with my 24/7 pms attack. geez, i sometimes hate being a female. females are evil.
the other day i went to see World Trade Center with my parents. some scenes were poorly shot in my opinion...but i liked the movie overall.
from the beginning to the end i was the only one crying and i felt kind of stupid for not brining anything to wipe my eyes...then again i don't wear extreme make up so i don't think my face looked like an accident. so that was good..
i think i am becoming more emotional lately.
even the other day, i just watched the ending of hundred acre wood on the disney channel before work and i started crying because christopher robin was growing up and making a promise with pooh.
i feel silly.
maybe i am sort of bummed because i am pretty much doing the same thing everyday. i don't want to grow up yet, but it happens and while i'm still here i do really want to make an impact on others as well as myself. i want to become better and i want to keep learning.
i know that at work i am making at least few families happy with my artwork because they thank me and compliment my skills, but i feel like i'm going no where. i want to make more people happy with what i do. also at the same time i want to make people think and feel what's going on with the world and such. bleh...it may be tooo simple.
my parents were telling me that i shouldn't stress too much about stuff like this, but i seriously need to take things seriously because i am soooo lazy.
life is way too short to do everything i want to do...
then again life is way too short to be moping and being depressed.
i want to really change my own life.
i don't want to waste any second of it.
and i want others to feel the same way.
meh....i sound like a psycho.
today is my day off which is nice, but it seems like every time i have a day off i clean my room or the entire house.
i was looking through stuff in my room which i probably don't need anymore, which is why i am going to create an artwork out of them or simply throw them away.
i have sooooo much junk. maybe i'll have a yard sale and sell everything for a dollar or something...
i don't know why but i keep getting depressed even though nothing really bad is happening to me.
maybe it's because of the coffee i drank today or maybe because i haven't eaten anything yet...(it's about 2pm right now)...i kind of want more coffee though. hmmmm...
i also get really pissy towards blair when i shouldn't be. i sort of feel sorry that he has to deal with my 24/7 pms attack. geez, i sometimes hate being a female. females are evil.
the other day i went to see World Trade Center with my parents. some scenes were poorly shot in my opinion...but i liked the movie overall.
from the beginning to the end i was the only one crying and i felt kind of stupid for not brining anything to wipe my eyes...then again i don't wear extreme make up so i don't think my face looked like an accident. so that was good..
i think i am becoming more emotional lately.
even the other day, i just watched the ending of hundred acre wood on the disney channel before work and i started crying because christopher robin was growing up and making a promise with pooh.
i feel silly.
maybe i am sort of bummed because i am pretty much doing the same thing everyday. i don't want to grow up yet, but it happens and while i'm still here i do really want to make an impact on others as well as myself. i want to become better and i want to keep learning.
i know that at work i am making at least few families happy with my artwork because they thank me and compliment my skills, but i feel like i'm going no where. i want to make more people happy with what i do. also at the same time i want to make people think and feel what's going on with the world and such. bleh...it may be tooo simple.
my parents were telling me that i shouldn't stress too much about stuff like this, but i seriously need to take things seriously because i am soooo lazy.
life is way too short to do everything i want to do...
then again life is way too short to be moping and being depressed.
i want to really change my own life.
i don't want to waste any second of it.
and i want others to feel the same way.
meh....i sound like a psycho.