blah
Confused
Torn to pieces
Shattered like cheep glass
Something once whole
Is no more
Love is wonderful
A feeling that should be cherished
Love is horrible
A feeling worst than death
Pain unrelenting
When love is lost
One can’t feel whole
While the other is gone
When close together
The painful,
Hurtful
Feelings and memories disappear
As if they never happened at all
Am I selfish?
Selfish for wanting to never see such horrible sights again
To never feel alone again in a crowded room
Or to feel overwhelmed in an all too familiar setting
Feeling as if you’re loosing grip
On something you let in so deep
I can’t help the feeling that I am losing you
So many bad past relationships
So many bruises and scrapes
Too much lies told in the past
It’s amazing I trust at all
It’s not easy
Sometimes I feel so lost and confused it hurts
Feels like drowning in chaos
I don’t want to be alone again
I don’t want to feel broken
Become another stepping stone
Promise me you’ll call and visit…
Am I selfish for wanting to feel the safety and security your arms bring me?
For wanting attention
For needing your love
For wishing for happiness
Am I selfish?
For wanting to keep you next to me to chase away the nightmares
The screams
The hits
And the bad memories
To laugh with you
To cry for you
To help you reach your goals
To help you face your fears
When I can’t even face my own
Torn hearts mend
Some just have thicker skin
Some heal faster than others
I am weak
My heart is more sensitive than most realize
Both mentally and physically
My tears fall while no one can watch
Few have ever seen them
Few ever will
I’ll be strong while you’re gone
I’ll stay true to my heart
It tells me that you will come back
But my mind keeps getting in the way with its doubts
I’ll try not to cry
When we say good bye
But know my heart will be breaking
But as broken bones do
It will heal with time
I’ll hold on to our promise
I’ll keep faith in you
Until we meet again and make our promise a new
I’ll trust in my heart for once in a long time
For you hold it in your hands
Whatever you do
Just please don’t drop it
I don’t think it could ever be whole again
If you did….
ok so it may be a bit sad and depressing but this is what goes through me when Zack tells me...and reminds me that he will no longer stay in agusta but move back home, granted athens is about a 4 hour drive i will still only get to see him maybe twice a month, i know i'm selfish but i can't help it...he spoiled me with attention i normally don't get from anyone, not like he gives it anyway... he has his moments, XD i will miss him dearly and i will probably be a bit lost without him but they say absence makes the heart grow fonder so i'm going to soak up all the love and attention i can while he is still here to help me through the days he is not. i will smile as i die inside slowly knowing he will be gone soon i wouldn't be able to stand it if he left me for good. i'd probably pull back to what i was when i first moved to georgia, before i made so many friends. a loner, i'd be too afraid of being hurt again to let anyone else close to me. so yeah, i'm pathetic...then again i'll keep myself to busy to remember the pain and keep busy till i fall asleep. so bare with me when he leaves, i'll probably drive everyone nuts trying to stay busy.
Torn to pieces
Shattered like cheep glass
Something once whole
Is no more
Love is wonderful
A feeling that should be cherished
Love is horrible
A feeling worst than death
Pain unrelenting
When love is lost
One can’t feel whole
While the other is gone
When close together
The painful,
Hurtful
Feelings and memories disappear
As if they never happened at all
Am I selfish?
Selfish for wanting to never see such horrible sights again
To never feel alone again in a crowded room
Or to feel overwhelmed in an all too familiar setting
Feeling as if you’re loosing grip
On something you let in so deep
I can’t help the feeling that I am losing you
So many bad past relationships
So many bruises and scrapes
Too much lies told in the past
It’s amazing I trust at all
It’s not easy
Sometimes I feel so lost and confused it hurts
Feels like drowning in chaos
I don’t want to be alone again
I don’t want to feel broken
Become another stepping stone
Promise me you’ll call and visit…
Am I selfish for wanting to feel the safety and security your arms bring me?
For wanting attention
For needing your love
For wishing for happiness
Am I selfish?
For wanting to keep you next to me to chase away the nightmares
The screams
The hits
And the bad memories
To laugh with you
To cry for you
To help you reach your goals
To help you face your fears
When I can’t even face my own
Torn hearts mend
Some just have thicker skin
Some heal faster than others
I am weak
My heart is more sensitive than most realize
Both mentally and physically
My tears fall while no one can watch
Few have ever seen them
Few ever will
I’ll be strong while you’re gone
I’ll stay true to my heart
It tells me that you will come back
But my mind keeps getting in the way with its doubts
I’ll try not to cry
When we say good bye
But know my heart will be breaking
But as broken bones do
It will heal with time
I’ll hold on to our promise
I’ll keep faith in you
Until we meet again and make our promise a new
I’ll trust in my heart for once in a long time
For you hold it in your hands
Whatever you do
Just please don’t drop it
I don’t think it could ever be whole again
If you did….
ok so it may be a bit sad and depressing but this is what goes through me when Zack tells me...and reminds me that he will no longer stay in agusta but move back home, granted athens is about a 4 hour drive i will still only get to see him maybe twice a month, i know i'm selfish but i can't help it...he spoiled me with attention i normally don't get from anyone, not like he gives it anyway... he has his moments, XD i will miss him dearly and i will probably be a bit lost without him but they say absence makes the heart grow fonder so i'm going to soak up all the love and attention i can while he is still here to help me through the days he is not. i will smile as i die inside slowly knowing he will be gone soon i wouldn't be able to stand it if he left me for good. i'd probably pull back to what i was when i first moved to georgia, before i made so many friends. a loner, i'd be too afraid of being hurt again to let anyone else close to me. so yeah, i'm pathetic...then again i'll keep myself to busy to remember the pain and keep busy till i fall asleep. so bare with me when he leaves, i'll probably drive everyone nuts trying to stay busy.