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It's been more than 2 weeks since Andy's birthday and I still haven't sent her anything. A letter, an email, a present. Nothing. I IMed her twice and she said not to talk to her and that she was dissapointed at her lack of acknowledgement on her birthday. I feel horribly, but I've been too lazy and drained to do too much of anything lately. It's an effort to get out of bed, to do my homework, to do anything.
I was just sitting here in silence, staring at the computer screen. My glasses are dirty and I'm seeing everything hazy with little blotches everywhere. The ceiling fan isn;t on like it usually is, so I'm hot. I'm hot and my ears feel like they're throbbing. I'm hot, my ears are throbbing, and I just had one of those moments like you see in movies where you feel like traveling quickly forward while your body remains where it is. You know where it feels like you're leaving your seat and traveling forward without moving at all. Very cliche movie feeling. Well, I've been having those lately. I have to shake my head to bring myself back to my body and focus on what I'm doing. My eyes start to unfocus and my eyeballs start to roll to the back of my head. I have to close my eyelids and move my eyebals around quickly so as to wake myself up and not let me knock out write here, next to the computer. I need sleep--desperatley.
I need sleep and this school year just needs to end already so I can be even closer to a new life and freedom from the nothingness and monotany.
I was just sitting here in silence, staring at the computer screen. My glasses are dirty and I'm seeing everything hazy with little blotches everywhere. The ceiling fan isn;t on like it usually is, so I'm hot. I'm hot and my ears feel like they're throbbing. I'm hot, my ears are throbbing, and I just had one of those moments like you see in movies where you feel like traveling quickly forward while your body remains where it is. You know where it feels like you're leaving your seat and traveling forward without moving at all. Very cliche movie feeling. Well, I've been having those lately. I have to shake my head to bring myself back to my body and focus on what I'm doing. My eyes start to unfocus and my eyeballs start to roll to the back of my head. I have to close my eyelids and move my eyebals around quickly so as to wake myself up and not let me knock out write here, next to the computer. I need sleep--desperatley.
I need sleep and this school year just needs to end already so I can be even closer to a new life and freedom from the nothingness and monotany.