Awful
I am extremely depressed. I broke up with Julie a little over two weeks ago now, and I hate every second of it. Honestly, I am not sure what the best thing to do is. I find myself alternatively thinking it was good idea and thinking it was the worst mistake ever. Most of the time I just wish I knew how she felt. And most of the time I wish everyone would stop reminding me how much she meant to me. I really want to disconnect from everything. It seems like I am constantly forced into thinking about her and I just want it to stop so bad. Perhaps Andy is right about the whole affair, perhaps I should just drop an A-bomb on that fucking bridge. I don't care if I lose all of my friends in the process because I think I just want to be alone anyway. It is so hard to admit defeat though. I have wanted us to work out so bad for so long I'm not sure what else to think about it all. Time heals all wounds they say, but they can just cram it right up their ass because I can't stop thinking about her.