don't tell me
funny how you can go from up here *holds arm above head* to down here *graces the floor with fingertips* to back to middling in such a short space of time.
blahhhh fuckity fuck rawr.
soooo excited about seeing grayham tonight, but i just got a text from him saying he wants to go to the tavern which kind of buggers up my plans for later. but hey.
i was listening to the dumdums earlier and they made me happy. i would give a lot to see josh doyle again just once.
i went to the doctors and was jabbed and weighed and asthma checked and prodded and talked to and medicated. but its all good.
biffy ticket palava: stupid delivery people sent them out very late. i rang them one day and they said they had just been posted. 3 day slater a little card appeared telling me to go online and rearrange delivery which i duely did. delivery didnt come. rearranged delivery for next day. delivery didnt come. called up and asked what was going on, arranged delivery for next day to be sent to work. didnt come, called up and they told me it was going to work tomorrow. no good. changed address details back to my house and made sure they would deliver it tomorrow. kelly called and further ensured they would deliver tomorrow. i hope they deliver tomorrow. i really want to see biffy. but more than that i really want kelly to see biffy again. in the koko. and the thought of having to say "the tickets arent coming" makes me want to stick needles in my arms.
but i have always been one to react oddly.
i was thinking today how much better things are now, now i'm working towards something and now there are goals. i like that. a couple of people have said i've lost weight, nd to be honest, i havent, but like natalie pointed out, i'm just holding myself better. i feel/ felt/ will feel a whole lot better. apart from the rest of the time, eh?
i think, i hope, its just today though and tomorrow all will be well in amyland again. just one of those low days i guess. people sometimes seem determined to do you down. people at work, people at home sometimes you just cant get away from people who want you to feel like something small and disgusting. its a shame when i let them, but its an age old problem... and i can feel it in my tummy and it makes me feel sick because i though i had outgrown this constant feeling of being so much less important than everyone else.
guess its a stage by stage thing. i must say i no longer feel secondary a lot of the time, so this will grow and grow. its a one off day today. (who am i trying to convince, you or me?)
and again... the weirdness... mood goes back up *there* points at stars.
i love whitehousesonara.
blahhhh fuckity fuck rawr.
soooo excited about seeing grayham tonight, but i just got a text from him saying he wants to go to the tavern which kind of buggers up my plans for later. but hey.
i was listening to the dumdums earlier and they made me happy. i would give a lot to see josh doyle again just once.
i went to the doctors and was jabbed and weighed and asthma checked and prodded and talked to and medicated. but its all good.
biffy ticket palava: stupid delivery people sent them out very late. i rang them one day and they said they had just been posted. 3 day slater a little card appeared telling me to go online and rearrange delivery which i duely did. delivery didnt come. rearranged delivery for next day. delivery didnt come. called up and asked what was going on, arranged delivery for next day to be sent to work. didnt come, called up and they told me it was going to work tomorrow. no good. changed address details back to my house and made sure they would deliver it tomorrow. kelly called and further ensured they would deliver tomorrow. i hope they deliver tomorrow. i really want to see biffy. but more than that i really want kelly to see biffy again. in the koko. and the thought of having to say "the tickets arent coming" makes me want to stick needles in my arms.
but i have always been one to react oddly.
i was thinking today how much better things are now, now i'm working towards something and now there are goals. i like that. a couple of people have said i've lost weight, nd to be honest, i havent, but like natalie pointed out, i'm just holding myself better. i feel/ felt/ will feel a whole lot better. apart from the rest of the time, eh?
i think, i hope, its just today though and tomorrow all will be well in amyland again. just one of those low days i guess. people sometimes seem determined to do you down. people at work, people at home sometimes you just cant get away from people who want you to feel like something small and disgusting. its a shame when i let them, but its an age old problem... and i can feel it in my tummy and it makes me feel sick because i though i had outgrown this constant feeling of being so much less important than everyone else.
guess its a stage by stage thing. i must say i no longer feel secondary a lot of the time, so this will grow and grow. its a one off day today. (who am i trying to convince, you or me?)
and again... the weirdness... mood goes back up *there* points at stars.
i love whitehousesonara.