Mother's Day
I'm never sure how to feel on this day of the year...my own mother died when I was 21 and because of the cancer I can't ever bear a child...and please don't say "you can always adopt."
I am 46, essentially single and have a history of cancer and diabetes. NO ONE is going to give me a child, especially an infant. The only human children I will ever have in my life are those of other people. I can't say that I'm at peace with that, but I have accepted it. Trust me, that's progress.
I find it deliciously ironic that even though I will never have a child of my own, I find myself in a motherly role with many of the people in my life. I am the one they come to when they have a boo boo, whether it be physical (being a klutz, I ALWAYS have band aids on me) or emotional.
I've had not one but two people acknowledge that in the last 18 or so hours. First, my sister-in-law, then a close friend. I took my family out to lunch and wished my s-i-l and my niece a happy mother's day, and Christa wished me one in return. My automatic response was "I'm not a mother." She said "Don't give me that! You may not have someone pestering you 24/7, but you've mothered a lot of people!" I was stunned. She has never said anything like that to me before.
Just a few minutes ago I wished my friend Barta happy mother's day, and she said "and the same to you, and don't tell me you're not a mom...you've mothered plenty of people."
I guess God has chosen to apply a couple of well chosen 2x4's to let me know that His plan for me is working out just fine, even if I have issues with it. (Wry smile)
So, for all the mother's out there, I hope you've had a lovely day.
I am 46, essentially single and have a history of cancer and diabetes. NO ONE is going to give me a child, especially an infant. The only human children I will ever have in my life are those of other people. I can't say that I'm at peace with that, but I have accepted it. Trust me, that's progress.
I find it deliciously ironic that even though I will never have a child of my own, I find myself in a motherly role with many of the people in my life. I am the one they come to when they have a boo boo, whether it be physical (being a klutz, I ALWAYS have band aids on me) or emotional.
I've had not one but two people acknowledge that in the last 18 or so hours. First, my sister-in-law, then a close friend. I took my family out to lunch and wished my s-i-l and my niece a happy mother's day, and Christa wished me one in return. My automatic response was "I'm not a mother." She said "Don't give me that! You may not have someone pestering you 24/7, but you've mothered a lot of people!" I was stunned. She has never said anything like that to me before.
Just a few minutes ago I wished my friend Barta happy mother's day, and she said "and the same to you, and don't tell me you're not a mom...you've mothered plenty of people."
I guess God has chosen to apply a couple of well chosen 2x4's to let me know that His plan for me is working out just fine, even if I have issues with it. (Wry smile)
So, for all the mother's out there, I hope you've had a lovely day.