this one goes out to the jables.
Ugh my head hurts. I don't have much to say at the moment. just that i try to shut myself down a bit with the dissatisfaction. Its funny, if i work harder towards something else it'll get better, but i kind of shut down anyway. to let the days go by a little easier. i need to focus but its really so hard. its easier to kind of shut down inside and continue to watch ANTM. Its nice to escape.
On health terms, i'm 140 i'd like to be 130. I was 135 for awhile but kinda fell off the wagon a bit. i'll work on it again. I'm trying to take responsibility and not eat the stuff I know will mess with my sensitive tummy. It's hard though cause a big thing about me is that the freedom of choice is super important. I hate having restrictions. I want to rail against them, even at the cost of my stomach comfort.
On the stomach note and work note, it's beginning to drive me nuts. I have nothing to do, I sell nothing, and I get penalized for having to go to the bathroom. Hello, UTI. I like having stuff to do at a job, to feel like i'm being paid for something. I could draw but i don't have references. i read, and say the same thign to each person. I'm a well paid shop monkey. I want something else, and I want more money :T and 40 hr/week.
I've been making life wants list at work. "Satisfying job, more money, and to travel"
I'm getting bored with this lol done and done for the entry today.