Getting Help
Well my life has gone to what I thought was okay to total shit once again...September is killing me. My grades dropped and i have to seek alot of help to make it through this semester...ive never been in this position ever. Im obvioulsy focusing on my social life too much...the only nights im not drunk is sunday and monday's. So im really scared about not making it through school and to make matters worse every other word from my bf is "if you do this we aren't going to work out" or "if you dont do this im leaving you and you are going to be alone." Those things definately aren't halping me out any.I mean he is definately trying to help me with the school aspect as stuff but he just could be nicer about trying to get his point across you know like say "hey that really upsets me, i really wish you would stop doing that because it would better our relationship" It just feels like he it constantly threating our relationship and it makes me feel that breaking up with me is at the tip of his tongue. Im really trying to change my actions and make everything okay but it takes babysteps and i know i need him more than ever right now in my life other wise my schooling situation wont get better because ill be down from losing him. I love him so much and really hope he realizes it takes time to change and im working on it.