Oct 04, 2005 05:18
I've been thinking.....
Maybe he's just a rebound. Maybe she'll get sick of him in a week, and realize what shes lost.
My heart begins to pound. My hopes are rising.
I was just a rebound from Greg.
My heart drops.
Two years, and you moved on so quickly. Sure, you're not one to sit around and wait, but was I important at all? If I was, i'd imagine you would at least take a while to get over me. But maybe you never really loved me. Maybe you loved the things I did for you. Maybe you loved the free dinners, the expensive jewelry, maybe thats what you were all about.
But then again, maybe you really did love me. Maybe everything you used to say was true. Maybe you really do want to marry me one day. Maybe we are made for each other.
But Then Again....
Why is there always another guy right after we run into an issue? Do you lead them on while your with me, then finally give them the chance when you're apart from me? Do you check out other guys, and think "hmm, maybe he would be good if me and Jay don't work out". Or do you just have to have someone? Maybe you can't be alone. Maybe that's it.
Maybe I'm just babbling. Maybe I'm broken-hearted. Maybe, just maybe, I will be alone for the rest of my life. Maybe I'll be with someone? Maybe i'll still be alone, even if I'm with someone. Maybe you're the only person in the world who ever knows how I truly feel about my life. Feels good to know that I entrusted you with my most private secret, and now we don't even talk.
Maybe one day you'll come back to me. It could be out of nowhere. Maybe we won't have talked for days, weeks, months, and you'll just call me, or send me an instant message, and just say "I love you and I can't live without you". Maybe I'm just dreaming.
Maybe, just maybe one day, my nightmare will end. Only you know what I mean by that.