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So many thoughts in a whirlwind of emothins. I want so much to feel important. I know this sounds totally cliche' but i don't care. I havre been really bored layely just hangin' with my family. not being in my enviorment in my elemnt is just kinda crazy. I feel so useless so unnessairy(sp). No one will keep me updated about home life. I just wonder how I plan to go away for three years. This growing up thing sucks.
On another note I have been reading other lj lately and I strted thinking about how no one has ever told me that I am pretty. Like it will come up about how guys aren't atrated to me and one friend will be like "No Jennie you are pretty" But I mean just had a guy look at mne and tell me that I am pretty. It just suucks right now because everybody loves jessica and I am stuck, yet agian, baing good friend Jennie. Yes i am jealous and so I guess it is just wauing on my emotions.
Other news: I have given up trying with that boy. I have tried on many occasions to be his friend but its not happening. It is just silly for me to be like lets hang out and him be like yeah sometime. yes days are short but come on. Just tell me that you don't want to bre my friend it is all I ask. I just want people to be honest w/ me. Well growning up sucks and I am trying hard to deal I just need my friends. I can't wait to be home again.
I come home in like 4 days. YEAH!!!!
On another note I have been reading other lj lately and I strted thinking about how no one has ever told me that I am pretty. Like it will come up about how guys aren't atrated to me and one friend will be like "No Jennie you are pretty" But I mean just had a guy look at mne and tell me that I am pretty. It just suucks right now because everybody loves jessica and I am stuck, yet agian, baing good friend Jennie. Yes i am jealous and so I guess it is just wauing on my emotions.
Other news: I have given up trying with that boy. I have tried on many occasions to be his friend but its not happening. It is just silly for me to be like lets hang out and him be like yeah sometime. yes days are short but come on. Just tell me that you don't want to bre my friend it is all I ask. I just want people to be honest w/ me. Well growning up sucks and I am trying hard to deal I just need my friends. I can't wait to be home again.
I come home in like 4 days. YEAH!!!!