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[oregon_punk]

jumbles and jumbles
crawling
hurting
hating
this is when the mind wonders
whats the point
this is when the body gives in
this is when the heart breaks
this is where the pain starts and ends

moving on
crawling on
running on
yet still moving on

center this
make this a poem
frame it
hang it on your wall
remember this is what it is
not for you
not for me
not for anything other than the sake of words

this is what this comes down to
lost in moments
living in past presents
future is a blur
hasnt it always been
people leave and people hurt
people stab you in the heart
and in the end you know it was all for nothing
nothing but lifes little lessons

thats what it is
life is lessons
lessons you always are learning
maybe in the end deaht is a lesson
in the end you learn he biggest lesson of all
your life wasnt what you wanted it to be
you made mistakes
you didnt take action when you were supposed to
or say the words you should have
its chasing that one that got away
and knowing they are better on without you
and in the end you gave them up for nothing
you gave them up for some thing that was dream
something that was not something that wanted you

it was fake
they were fake
and you gave up the real thing
yet in the end the real thing is better without you
they found someone that completes them
the heart quit bleeding from the wound and
then there it was
the one thing to fill that whole

thats life
and this is not for you
this is my thoughts and my theories
you can not take this and use it in any way
because you are nothing
this is my moment of clarity
my words of wisdom
and yet they are not mine
but most defiently not yours
because you are nothing more than hoodsmoke
behind me blocking the past
with the lessons in my head
i need not to see the past