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Aug 13, 2012 02:11

So, like... I'm the one in the wrong? I don't know. Okay, not gonna bother with it right now. Everything just makes my head hurt ( Read more... )

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zengodchild August 13 2012, 00:17:16 UTC
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In the wrong about what? I've noticed that you're a bit light in the senpai department of late, if you need an unbiased ear you can have either one of mine.

Delete the text message. Whatever it is, having it around is giving it power over you. And a tiny collection of pixels doesn't deserve that.

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ore_wa_samurai August 13 2012, 00:19:43 UTC
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I don't know if you've noticed, but things are a bit... weird between me and one of my former senpai. And... Hey. Do I look like I need someone older to rely on or something? I assure you, I can take care of myself.

Thanks for the offer though.

Huh. But it's... No, never mind.

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zengodchild August 13 2012, 00:37:12 UTC
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Momoshiro? Yes, it's kind of hard not to, with his tendency to fly off half-cocked and so forth. What gives?

No, not exactly. Senpai don't look out for you because they think you can't take care of yourself. They look out for you because they're senpai and that's what they do. It's...part of the code, if you will. I forget you didn't grow up in Japan. Since I wasn't your senpai in school, I don't have a lot of preconceived notions that you're still twelve and need to be babied. Even a small island like this can feel big when you don't have anyone to talk to.

You're welcome, it's not a time-limited thing.

You're going in circles. Whatever it is, make a decision and act on it. Spinning your wheels hurts you more than it hurts anyone else, and you don't deserve that.

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ore_wa_samurai August 13 2012, 00:44:15 UTC
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He's not gay and he's freaked out that I fancy him but I think he likes Kaidoh. I don't know. I... shouldn't even care. I'm just so sick of it and all the fucking drama.

I really didn't grow up in Japan. I've honestly only spent like... 6 to 9 months of my entire life in Japan. So it's weird, alright, this 'senpai' concept.

Yeah, it's too big. All... echo like.

... I don't have any wheels. I don't get it.

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zengodchild August 13 2012, 01:05:16 UTC
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Ouch. That sucks (and from an outside observer, I think he probably likes Kaidoh-kun). Just because you may feel like you shouldn't care doesn't mean you can stop. Feelings aren't like tap water, you can't just turn them on and off. (I second the dislike of drama.)

Well, senpai are those who have been somewhere longer than you have, be it school or work. Because they have been there longer, the expectation is that they will guide you and you will follow their guidance so that when newer people come in you can be their senpai. Senpai look after you...and it's generally accepted that senpai will treat you to meals and the like. I managed to procure more mangoes from Atobe, so there's some fish and pineapple-mango chutney here if you're hungry.

We'll see if we can't make the island a little smaller.

It means you're going around and around without making a decision. I mainly know you from tennis and that's an area in which you are not indecisive, thus this concerns me. So who's Donny?

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ore_wa_samurai August 15 2012, 19:12:46 UTC
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Yeah...

Isn't that system sort of degrading? I don't know... Ah, anyway, yeah. I'd love some chutney, but don't tell Atobe I asked for it or you might never get any ever again.

I... guess.

Donny's my ex.

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zengodchild August 15 2012, 22:34:04 UTC
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You have to stop thinking Western and think Japanese to really understand it. Everything in Japanese culture is based on two precepts: collective before individual and knowing one's status in relation to those around you. Rather than degrading, it's comforting, because it means you are never alone. There are others looking out to pick up up and bring you along, and as a senpai it means you are contributing and mentoring those below you in an organization as you were mentored by those above you.

Pfft. Atobe doesn't get any say over what I do with mangoes acquired in a fair trade once they've been traded. As your new senpai, consider it me treating you to dinner (in lieu of us being able to go out somewhere).

Ah. Recent ex or not-so-recent ex?

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ore_wa_samurai August 15 2012, 22:36:42 UTC
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Somehow I get what you're saying, but it's still difficult to wrap my head around it, you know? It's like I have to rewire my brain completely. That's not an easy task. But it's a nice thought... And I'd love to call you Yuki-senpai. If it's okay.

Let's have dinner on the beach.

... Fairly recent.

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