I have no choice, I have no voice.. i have no say.. with my decay

[ordinaryworld]

You know what doesnt make sense? [i was thinking] That dumb arab at mobil said ill call you, right, so i was like please tell me what you really mean. so he lied more. I wanted ot knwo what was really going on, its my life, I need to know. So he said something even more off, "yes ill call you, and ill try you out" um no looks like he hasnt called. Why is it when i ask more, when its more imporant i get thrown further away from the truth. Why do i even have to ask more than once?? I mean yea i try to avoid PEOPLE that lie to me, but in this case, I CANT. so dont tell me to fuckin talk to other people. These are employers. HA thats funny, why do i have to ask more than once. HAH.. that sounds so funny to me. Like i cant know the truth till i ask ten times.. way to go people. just a deeper and deeper hole, every time you say the opposite of what you mean. oh wait, people that actually like me do the same thing, i must be special.

I dont know where you get yer money from, but I wish I didnt have to be the one to pay.

You wanted me to write you letters
but i'd rather lose yer address.