baby, it's cold outside
★ is anyone really excited that the radio will soon be filled with winter/christmas songs? cos i am.
★ also, i maybe/kinda/ok-i-do have a crush on my friend at uni. it's stupid and i'm managing to control it but he's so fucking charming, the dickhead. :3 AND my other friend asked me last night as we left stufy group if i had a crush on him and i'm all "O_o...how'd you know?" and she's all ">_>...i'm good at reading people, plus you guys are always together." which is like sooooo not true. i only see him on mondays, tuesdays and thursdays. unless we have a study group, in which i see him more. but yeah, i've got a problem. lol. i will not act on it, solely for the reason that he is the GREATEST person ever and i love having him as a friend and i just do not want to ruin it.
★ anyways, next. i'm heading to waterloo for the weekend to see amanda. i'm excited.
★ oh and idk if i mentioned my mental breakdown yet but i had one in my mother's arms over how i have to think about school, getting a job, the family crap that always happens, the money problems, etc and it was all jumbling in my head and i just snapped and cried sooooooo badly and she was like holding me and such. now....2 weeks later, she's all "you seem to be managing just fine, idk why you were freaking out before." OBVIOUSLY MOTHER I CAN LIE TO YOUR FACE VERY WELL. i even told her admist my tears that i don't ever show it. now she's using the one vulnerable moment in my life against me. thanks.
★ this post was really just for kayla, cos it;s the only way i can communicate the goings-on in my life. lol.