blarg
I feel weird today, extreamly paranoid or something.
its weird, and vaughly irrational and silly but i always feel like what people say to me and what people think are totally sperate things. Like people really find me weird and annoying but don't want to hurt my feelings so they pretend to be nice.
And even if they do eventually like me its just because they 'got past' my original weird tendancys and oddities and such to accept me like the openminded people that they are.
But there arn't many people who have gotten past that where im living now
also, i dont really get why my intrests are so socially unacceptable. and why people can't divorced intrests from personality. cool people like dorky things too...
guess im just depressed cause its raining for some weird psycological reason.
its weird, and vaughly irrational and silly but i always feel like what people say to me and what people think are totally sperate things. Like people really find me weird and annoying but don't want to hurt my feelings so they pretend to be nice.
And even if they do eventually like me its just because they 'got past' my original weird tendancys and oddities and such to accept me like the openminded people that they are.
But there arn't many people who have gotten past that where im living now
also, i dont really get why my intrests are so socially unacceptable. and why people can't divorced intrests from personality. cool people like dorky things too...
guess im just depressed cause its raining for some weird psycological reason.