Oct 12, 2005 15:28
Lately I've turned a 180 and have been like completley different from how I usually am. Like right now I can't really type that well....? I've been really like nervous, and like my insides feel warped. I think it's more emotional than medical...I've lost my apetite/appetite, I'm quiet, I don't know just...lost. Yesterday we had band practice and it wasn't awesome, but it wasn't miserable, I got ride to the middle school with Anthony, I think I'm going to distract myself from #1 with my all valley music, I'm seriously doubting him, Like I think it's best just to get over it than pursue him....pursue sounds suspicously like stalk....Today's been rather upsetting...I've been very distracted as well, and tonight Danny's coming over so we can finish reading at least chapter 14, I'm not sure how that's going to go yet.Whatever, I feel so lame. In my English class she told us that she's going to make us write our own epitaph, I've already started thinking about mine.
I lived my life
Always secretly longing
Never able to express those true feelings
Something along those lines....I end up slitting my wrists and dying with blood all over my arms...Wow I didn't think, I guess since I know I'd never do it really, this is my chance to get creative....anywho I'm bored...
~Michael