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Its still taking its toll. I wonder if she will ever get better.
Shes trying to fight it off, but no such luck yet. "What will happen" I wake up podering every new day.
It makes me feel giulty that I was such a horrible teenager. Putting her through so much fucked up mental anguish. It makes me reflect upon the way I have treated some women in my life. Now that she is sick the months go by, and I wonder "Could this somehow be my fault". I mean, Maybe the stress I caused her wreaked havok on her internal system. She is a good woman and does not deserve any of what I threw towards her.
She is the only woman left in my family.Thinking of her passing remins me Of watching my aunt get shot by her abusive boyfreind.
There is nothing I can do about it. The feeling of pwerlessness its terrible.
What can I do, but wait? And hope for the best.
Work was good, made some extra tips. Its weird how I can do something to someone ,that causes pain. Yet they tell me I was very gentle. Ironic .
Someone I use to be in love with is going through some major shit with the Loser. She does not deserve it. And the fact that the other girl, has been involving herself with him since my friend and the Loser were together, is revolting to me. How could he hurt her like that. If you dont do something wrong to her, she is the most caring sensitive woman a man could ask for. This imbasule claims she is a Peacefull person. I HATE WOMEN LIKE THAT. Its always the ones who claim to be so nice, who turn out to be the worst in the end. Plus what kind of fucked up peice of shit is this girl...I guess she is not good enough to find her OWN man.
But what can you expect from a High School Student?
I sent my freind a special present. She should see that some people really love and care for her.
ANd others Lie & say they love you to get into your pants.
Shes trying to fight it off, but no such luck yet. "What will happen" I wake up podering every new day.
It makes me feel giulty that I was such a horrible teenager. Putting her through so much fucked up mental anguish. It makes me reflect upon the way I have treated some women in my life. Now that she is sick the months go by, and I wonder "Could this somehow be my fault". I mean, Maybe the stress I caused her wreaked havok on her internal system. She is a good woman and does not deserve any of what I threw towards her.
She is the only woman left in my family.Thinking of her passing remins me Of watching my aunt get shot by her abusive boyfreind.
There is nothing I can do about it. The feeling of pwerlessness its terrible.
What can I do, but wait? And hope for the best.
Work was good, made some extra tips. Its weird how I can do something to someone ,that causes pain. Yet they tell me I was very gentle. Ironic .
Someone I use to be in love with is going through some major shit with the Loser. She does not deserve it. And the fact that the other girl, has been involving herself with him since my friend and the Loser were together, is revolting to me. How could he hurt her like that. If you dont do something wrong to her, she is the most caring sensitive woman a man could ask for. This imbasule claims she is a Peacefull person. I HATE WOMEN LIKE THAT. Its always the ones who claim to be so nice, who turn out to be the worst in the end. Plus what kind of fucked up peice of shit is this girl...I guess she is not good enough to find her OWN man.
But what can you expect from a High School Student?
I sent my freind a special present. She should see that some people really love and care for her.
ANd others Lie & say they love you to get into your pants.