Confusion . ( not the song unfortunatly)
Elise and I were going to grace ugly fucks with our presence at the Fly show this weekend. She says she does not want to attend because of her bastard Ex and his new child lover. So apon hearing of the swingers party and most likely getting to see her naked and possibly more ( I KNOW she can be co-ersed because she's vulnerable) I have decided to skip the show, AGIAN, in order to be around her. It is strange. It is confusing. I push. She Holds back. She is currently having sexual play with a guy named Joseph. I cannot claim to not be jealous. I am imensly. Leo the Loser should have let me have her years ago. It does not feel right that because of the damage he has created, that I am not given a chance. I know that this guy she has been screwing is just in it for fun. Or is He? How many of us can really keep going on like that physically without having a reprocusion of one sort or another? As soon as this guy starts developing something emotionally and Tells Her.I know for a FACT that she will drop the Sex.I have had Sport Fuckers. Yet with my playmates I did not also chat with them online for hours complimenting them and flirting, Hang out for hours and hours at home Pre-Sex, and we Definitly Did NOT spend time cuddling. She told me he wanted to hold her after the sex. I told her she better be carefull because this guy sounds like he may be developing something. Perhaps I may meet this guy. Then perhaps I may frighten him away, or perhaps I may frighten her into getting rid of him. If he falls, He will Fall Hard. She should not let Him cuddle. She should not invite him over to socialize and talk about music and make him drinks and food. Whatever. She does not belong to me. I should not Worry. Lets get in a better mood here. The weather has been pleasent. Rain. Clouds. I enjoy watching my cats stare dreamily out the window without a worry in the world. Like I did as a kid. Animals are pleasent to watch. So peacefull. And when they play they have no worries or problems in the back of their little simple minds. I wish to be reincarnated as a housecat. One that is fed well, spoiled,and adored like all Cats deserve to be. The dog is not treated too shabby either. But cats move with such grace. How an animal can be so elegant is astounding to me. If one animal came from another world/planet- It must be the feline species.
She reminds me of a cat.
She reminds me of a cat.