comfort food
A younger girl I work with has had emotional and general life difficulties. I know this, and I want to help her. Instead, what I get is attitude, awful looks and scowls. I do my best to not take it personal, as I know she is young, and I haven't done anything too terrible. It's interesting to navigate to say the least. She is also pretty tight with the other management in the store which makes me a little uneasy at time. I swear, they are all so gossipy, he said she said, that...And I don't like to complain much at all, so I suck it up, smile, and do my best. I like my job, the benefits I get, and the service I do. So anyway, today I walk into the bathroom. She's there looking at herself in the mirror. She has taken her glasses off. I hardly look at her very much anymore to dodge the looks. I find myself curious about not noticing if she's always worn glasses or not and say "Hi" no response. usual.
I do my business and come out to wash my hands. Singing row row row your boat I am surprised to hear her voice say my name in a normal tone. She says "Sylvia, I really appreciate you saying hi to me even though you know I don't like you. I don't even know why I don't like you, so I'd like to squash it. you are awesome, and I really don't think it's anything you've done."
My face turned beet red, as it often does when put on the spot, I turned to her and said "You are going to make me cry..." and I hugged her... "J, i'm sorry if i've ever done anything to make you not like me. I know sometimes being a woman, you can just not vibe with others. I get it. I appreciate you saying this to me. Thank you. And again, i'm sorry." Apparently one of her friends who likes me suggested to her, that she not be mean to me, that she didn't have to front an attitude, or whatever because I was a nice girl.
now doesn't that just make you want to melt?
I think i'm going to get her a small something...and spoil her from now on.
The funny thing is, after writing this...I am now remembering a thought process of mine that I had. I know there has been tension. I work to resolve this on my own as much as possible when it comes up. I can honestly say, I remember thinking about embracing her...
This brings me back to the two young and beautiful girls I encountered at the women's symposium. At first for some reason, they bothered me a bit. innocence, naivety, jealous of what a cush life looks like around the edges? I couldn't figure it out...after the weekend was nearly complete and I had them in classes, and most importantly, the vision quest led by a woman named Susan (who I highly recommend, she takes women out into nature, and the Inyo dessert!) we shared lunch by the fire circle on my last day. it was these two women who when I left I wished I had left my contact info with. Open to the lessons, and the healing, I shifted the tension, and was able to really connect. They were soo sweet, and I think about them and know I may see them again. I hope that when I do I'm ready.
I do my business and come out to wash my hands. Singing row row row your boat I am surprised to hear her voice say my name in a normal tone. She says "Sylvia, I really appreciate you saying hi to me even though you know I don't like you. I don't even know why I don't like you, so I'd like to squash it. you are awesome, and I really don't think it's anything you've done."
My face turned beet red, as it often does when put on the spot, I turned to her and said "You are going to make me cry..." and I hugged her... "J, i'm sorry if i've ever done anything to make you not like me. I know sometimes being a woman, you can just not vibe with others. I get it. I appreciate you saying this to me. Thank you. And again, i'm sorry." Apparently one of her friends who likes me suggested to her, that she not be mean to me, that she didn't have to front an attitude, or whatever because I was a nice girl.
now doesn't that just make you want to melt?
I think i'm going to get her a small something...and spoil her from now on.
The funny thing is, after writing this...I am now remembering a thought process of mine that I had. I know there has been tension. I work to resolve this on my own as much as possible when it comes up. I can honestly say, I remember thinking about embracing her...
This brings me back to the two young and beautiful girls I encountered at the women's symposium. At first for some reason, they bothered me a bit. innocence, naivety, jealous of what a cush life looks like around the edges? I couldn't figure it out...after the weekend was nearly complete and I had them in classes, and most importantly, the vision quest led by a woman named Susan (who I highly recommend, she takes women out into nature, and the Inyo dessert!) we shared lunch by the fire circle on my last day. it was these two women who when I left I wished I had left my contact info with. Open to the lessons, and the healing, I shifted the tension, and was able to really connect. They were soo sweet, and I think about them and know I may see them again. I hope that when I do I'm ready.