i hate when my mind has sooooo much to questoin, and no answers to solve them...
so he talks to me....
i talk to him....
he flirts like crazy, and tells me about these amazing things he wants to do with me...like go to the zoo and go to the beach and go shopping and spend the night at eachothers houses. i like the sound of it and all. and im all down for having fun...but in the end of it all i know that in the back of my mind i have to constantly keep reminding myself that its only a hookup until he or i says its not. it makes me sad sometimes do now that i would just hookup with someone...but something tells me that its not...thers like this deep down feeling inside that tells me im not doing anything wrong and that everything is going to be fine as long as i make sure to clarify that is nothing and means nothing until one of us says so.
i just dont get guys. like why cant he just tell me...this is a hookup...or i really like you and want to be something offical. but nooooo its like boys are programed to not admit their feelings. and i dont understand it and have come to the realization that i never will.
he drives me crazy...im sooo addicted to him and it drives me up the wall that everytime i talk to him he's all i think about and everytime im not talking about him he's on my mind....gaahhhhhhhhh!!!!
please....all i ask is that all of this worrying and safe play pays off for me in the end. im sick of getting screwed over or getting boys that cant make decisions. i want something real i want something that means something i want a real relationship. the bummer is i know that i wont at least not right now. but for now im going to keep myself happy and enjoy the fun that i have with him. and enjoy my summer and have the best time of my life!
i talk to him....
he flirts like crazy, and tells me about these amazing things he wants to do with me...like go to the zoo and go to the beach and go shopping and spend the night at eachothers houses. i like the sound of it and all. and im all down for having fun...but in the end of it all i know that in the back of my mind i have to constantly keep reminding myself that its only a hookup until he or i says its not. it makes me sad sometimes do now that i would just hookup with someone...but something tells me that its not...thers like this deep down feeling inside that tells me im not doing anything wrong and that everything is going to be fine as long as i make sure to clarify that is nothing and means nothing until one of us says so.
i just dont get guys. like why cant he just tell me...this is a hookup...or i really like you and want to be something offical. but nooooo its like boys are programed to not admit their feelings. and i dont understand it and have come to the realization that i never will.
he drives me crazy...im sooo addicted to him and it drives me up the wall that everytime i talk to him he's all i think about and everytime im not talking about him he's on my mind....gaahhhhhhhhh!!!!
please....all i ask is that all of this worrying and safe play pays off for me in the end. im sick of getting screwed over or getting boys that cant make decisions. i want something real i want something that means something i want a real relationship. the bummer is i know that i wont at least not right now. but for now im going to keep myself happy and enjoy the fun that i have with him. and enjoy my summer and have the best time of my life!