Tuesday could be painful...
Tuesday I'll proberly have an interview with a comapany I've always dreamed of working with, doing a job, part of which, I've done unoffically for a while. Unfortuantly two of my friends are also going for the positions avalible. Which is where it gets annoying, because whilst a really really want this job I also don't want to compete with friends for that pleasure. God, I hate dilemas like this, its bad enougth competing with complete strangers, where I'm always thinking maybe they need this more than me. But I've got to get out of this frame of mind otherwise I'm just going to keep fucking myself up. I need to work, I can't keep living on a quickly dwindeling nest egg with one perhaps two years subsiding at relative comfort (TV, food, rent, bills and interwebs) left. God sometimes I just don't think I'm cut out for adult life.