Seasonal Spirit Post...
If you are enjoying your holiday then PLEASE DON'T READ THIS!!!
This is a post from a very bitter person who finds no positive side to holidays like this and if you don't want those kinds of images in your head then go to someone else's site right now!
The last thing I intend to do with this is make anyone else's Christmas ugly...
I think that at this point I would probably be willing to spend this holiday season with just about anyone else...
What I wouldn't give right now to spend the next two days with my friends instead of my family.
Even alone... But not with these... "People"...
"Merry christmas..." Ha! That's like an oxymoron in this house.
I spent last Christmas in the midst of such misery...
My brothers fervently opened presents, but they still found reason to fight...
They fought and made my mom angry...
And then she yelled at me... Because I wasn't happy enough I guess... As if that was going to help.
I had to try as hard as I possibly could to not burst into tears.
And then later that day my mom thought it was weird when I didn't want to come down to see the family guests...
I can already see how this one is going to turn out...
I don't want to be here...
I want to get out... So that I can actually live.
Cause I certainly can't live like this... With them.
I'm not going to run away if that's how it sounds...
That's not the way I deal with my problems...
But I hate Christmas with my family...
It shouldn't have to be that way, but it is...
I want my friends...
I want my real family...
My true brothers and sisters...
This mockery of a family can't possibly be where I'm meant to be.
This can't be how I'm meant to spend Christmas.
This can't be how I'm meant to live my life...
Sorry... Sorry to anyone who ignored my warning and read this anyway...
Have a Merry Christmas, and I mean that. Even if it's not something I know how to have, it's something that I can at least wish on everyone else.
Merry Christmas guys,
Dicey
This is a post from a very bitter person who finds no positive side to holidays like this and if you don't want those kinds of images in your head then go to someone else's site right now!
The last thing I intend to do with this is make anyone else's Christmas ugly...
I think that at this point I would probably be willing to spend this holiday season with just about anyone else...
What I wouldn't give right now to spend the next two days with my friends instead of my family.
Even alone... But not with these... "People"...
"Merry christmas..." Ha! That's like an oxymoron in this house.
I spent last Christmas in the midst of such misery...
My brothers fervently opened presents, but they still found reason to fight...
They fought and made my mom angry...
And then she yelled at me... Because I wasn't happy enough I guess... As if that was going to help.
I had to try as hard as I possibly could to not burst into tears.
And then later that day my mom thought it was weird when I didn't want to come down to see the family guests...
I can already see how this one is going to turn out...
I don't want to be here...
I want to get out... So that I can actually live.
Cause I certainly can't live like this... With them.
I'm not going to run away if that's how it sounds...
That's not the way I deal with my problems...
But I hate Christmas with my family...
It shouldn't have to be that way, but it is...
I want my friends...
I want my real family...
My true brothers and sisters...
This mockery of a family can't possibly be where I'm meant to be.
This can't be how I'm meant to spend Christmas.
This can't be how I'm meant to live my life...
Sorry... Sorry to anyone who ignored my warning and read this anyway...
Have a Merry Christmas, and I mean that. Even if it's not something I know how to have, it's something that I can at least wish on everyone else.
Merry Christmas guys,
Dicey