the Rants & Unadventures of Lonely Boy.
Ahh, uhh, woops. Sorry livejournal - it has been a strange couple of weeks!
I think I'm post-travel depressed if that exists, maybe I'm just bored due to unemployment & lack of car or maybe I'm just so damn agitated with boys boys boys!!! It really is a mix of all three. The travel problem is obvious... jetting all the way around the world, meeting new people everyday, jumping off floating metal things 134m in the air(!!), relaxing at the beach if boredom strikes to... Hemel Hempstead. Possibly the biggest bane of my life. Don't get me wrong I have had an awesome few weeks upon returning home but I can't help thinking that I'm starting to go stale. My life was an adventure for a while there and now it's not and, well it's just very hard to adjust to!!
Job searching of course, always sucks. The whole damn process sends my anxiety soaring high. It's been so bad that for a second there I even considered re-applying to Woodside, which trust me would be a terrible mistake. Whipsnade eludes me (there is no love there!!!) as does anything else wildlife related. So, process of elimination... a pub job it is looking to be (I have literally whittled it down to this as I am that fussy!), which means a car is needed sorely. Hopefully it is in the works - should help me regain some of that quickly fading independence too.
Boys? Urgh. I am not trained in the art. I'm single for 3 years, literally no interest in guys at all and when I finally do find someone that I kinda like it all goes awry!! Gay guys are so very slutty, so much that I do sometimes wonder if I am a new breed altogether. All I can do is stay true to myself and not get involved unless I am at least over 90% sure of mutual likeness. Still, I do have a date with Michael on Tuesday - I'll let that be the decider. I really am losing the will to make the effort though... and this early on it can only spell trouble.
The rants & unadventures of 'lonely boy' - that's me, fake Dan Humphrey!
I think I'm post-travel depressed if that exists, maybe I'm just bored due to unemployment & lack of car or maybe I'm just so damn agitated with boys boys boys!!! It really is a mix of all three. The travel problem is obvious... jetting all the way around the world, meeting new people everyday, jumping off floating metal things 134m in the air(!!), relaxing at the beach if boredom strikes to... Hemel Hempstead. Possibly the biggest bane of my life. Don't get me wrong I have had an awesome few weeks upon returning home but I can't help thinking that I'm starting to go stale. My life was an adventure for a while there and now it's not and, well it's just very hard to adjust to!!
Job searching of course, always sucks. The whole damn process sends my anxiety soaring high. It's been so bad that for a second there I even considered re-applying to Woodside, which trust me would be a terrible mistake. Whipsnade eludes me (there is no love there!!!) as does anything else wildlife related. So, process of elimination... a pub job it is looking to be (I have literally whittled it down to this as I am that fussy!), which means a car is needed sorely. Hopefully it is in the works - should help me regain some of that quickly fading independence too.
Boys? Urgh. I am not trained in the art. I'm single for 3 years, literally no interest in guys at all and when I finally do find someone that I kinda like it all goes awry!! Gay guys are so very slutty, so much that I do sometimes wonder if I am a new breed altogether. All I can do is stay true to myself and not get involved unless I am at least over 90% sure of mutual likeness. Still, I do have a date with Michael on Tuesday - I'll let that be the decider. I really am losing the will to make the effort though... and this early on it can only spell trouble.
The rants & unadventures of 'lonely boy' - that's me, fake Dan Humphrey!