Heh, sorry...
So, I haven't updated in forever. In truth, I kinda forgot I had this after a while because too much was going on.
I got fired from The Gap and work for my dad now. I repaired my relationship with my dad and the one with my mom fell apart in a nuclear explosion. Now I don't talk to half my family members because I seem to have failed a loyalty test or something. Rob is in Colorado (Durango), Matt is married to Mallory and they're in Chicago, and I'm exactly where I was when I arrived two (three?) years ago: nowhere. No degree. I've pretty much dropped out of school for the time being as my motivation to become a teacher is now at zero. I'm at a loss of what I really want to do, so in the meantime I'm a receptionist at my dad's office and make good money doing that while flirting with the idea of becoming a nurse or breaking into the dub business or moving to Japan. Or something. Tony still hasn't got his dream job and it's kind of killing him, but he's dealing. I've become more obssessed with anime and videogames, comics and movies, etc.
In short I'm stuck but I don't hate it anymore. I wake up feeling like I have more possibilities than anything else. I argue philosophy with my therapist, literature with my Dad, art design and themes in games/comics/anime with Seth and Joel, and all of the above with Tony. I'm having fun and feeling better about myself. I feel smart and good for once in my life. It might be because I no longer have my mom trying to constantly manipulate me and tear me down every day of my life. I hate living without my family (my mom's side, the Roses), but at a distance it's easy to see just how fucked up they really are. And until they're willing to treat me with respect, treat Tony as important to me, and acknowledge that just because I'm different doesn't mean I'm bad or headed for disaster, then and only then will my two halves feel completely whole.
......
Sorry for the rambling. Trying to cram at least six months worth of events and self-discovery into a paragraph is a bit schizophrentic in itself.
Anyway, I have a blog now. I update that regularly. It's about being a female consumer in the male-dominated market of anime/manga/videogames/comic books. Mainly just me rambling on these topics. Still, one of my readers (a patient at my dad's office I trade anime with) tells me he likes it. Actually, he might be my only reader. But at least my audience is pleased, right?
Here's the link: http://jillxwoman.blogspot.com/
Good bye, you guys. Meet me on the other side...
I got fired from The Gap and work for my dad now. I repaired my relationship with my dad and the one with my mom fell apart in a nuclear explosion. Now I don't talk to half my family members because I seem to have failed a loyalty test or something. Rob is in Colorado (Durango), Matt is married to Mallory and they're in Chicago, and I'm exactly where I was when I arrived two (three?) years ago: nowhere. No degree. I've pretty much dropped out of school for the time being as my motivation to become a teacher is now at zero. I'm at a loss of what I really want to do, so in the meantime I'm a receptionist at my dad's office and make good money doing that while flirting with the idea of becoming a nurse or breaking into the dub business or moving to Japan. Or something. Tony still hasn't got his dream job and it's kind of killing him, but he's dealing. I've become more obssessed with anime and videogames, comics and movies, etc.
In short I'm stuck but I don't hate it anymore. I wake up feeling like I have more possibilities than anything else. I argue philosophy with my therapist, literature with my Dad, art design and themes in games/comics/anime with Seth and Joel, and all of the above with Tony. I'm having fun and feeling better about myself. I feel smart and good for once in my life. It might be because I no longer have my mom trying to constantly manipulate me and tear me down every day of my life. I hate living without my family (my mom's side, the Roses), but at a distance it's easy to see just how fucked up they really are. And until they're willing to treat me with respect, treat Tony as important to me, and acknowledge that just because I'm different doesn't mean I'm bad or headed for disaster, then and only then will my two halves feel completely whole.
......
Sorry for the rambling. Trying to cram at least six months worth of events and self-discovery into a paragraph is a bit schizophrentic in itself.
Anyway, I have a blog now. I update that regularly. It's about being a female consumer in the male-dominated market of anime/manga/videogames/comic books. Mainly just me rambling on these topics. Still, one of my readers (a patient at my dad's office I trade anime with) tells me he likes it. Actually, he might be my only reader. But at least my audience is pleased, right?
Here's the link: http://jillxwoman.blogspot.com/
Good bye, you guys. Meet me on the other side...