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So... at home, I would go through like 2-5 day spells of just being down and in a bad mood. Completely and totally because of things relating to mom, but it came out in every form from not wanting to hang out or being on short circuit. And its been awhile since that has happened, but it definitely hit me today. complete short circuit.. and when things are rough with ppl at home, slash meridith .. it makes it worse. I emailed my dad telling him what i told her and how I will not use the plane ticket if he pays for it. etc etc. and now we are talking on MSN and he said she hasnt said too much and that he thinks she knows its "expensive and a drag on my time".
People were just over here, including ignorant drunk american boys, who i wanted to kill. that being said, I'm sure the 4 hrs of sleep last night that I got didn't help.
I just hate these days.... I really do. And at home, when I just wanted to be alone and hide in a closet, I couldn't really do it, But here I am already in that closet with my own space, which is at least a positive.
We shall see. Nice for the weekend with my Brazilian friend .. should be fun .. lots of speaking in french, because she says if I can't speack portuguese with her, then she wont speak english with me. Except she completely gives in when she cant find the words in french to use.. because she is basically fluent in english.
People were just over here, including ignorant drunk american boys, who i wanted to kill. that being said, I'm sure the 4 hrs of sleep last night that I got didn't help.
I just hate these days.... I really do. And at home, when I just wanted to be alone and hide in a closet, I couldn't really do it, But here I am already in that closet with my own space, which is at least a positive.
We shall see. Nice for the weekend with my Brazilian friend .. should be fun .. lots of speaking in french, because she says if I can't speack portuguese with her, then she wont speak english with me. Except she completely gives in when she cant find the words in french to use.. because she is basically fluent in english.