confused. overwhelmed. hurting.
my friends tell me he's fucking with my head
if this has been going on since january then it's been going on for five years.
i think he's right..
i promised something and fucked it up
they say you're going to fuck up everyone always does
does he see that i've changed?
over two days cn you really tell?
i opened myself up to him and because i made a mistake my walls are burnt.
how can he trust me again?
after everything, EVERYTHING, I trust him.
blindly trust him.
they say if we split up he will never find anyone who will put up with his issues
they say i could find someone better
i can do so much better.
he even assumed that....
....that im in this relationship bc i don't think i can do better.
then when i confronted him last night he said that- I said that..
and he said no, i'm better than that.
but today it's something different.
he meant something else.
they say he never actually listens to me
he's too busy thinking about the next thing he's going to say
but he tells me i do to it to him.
five years... and i'm still in love.
so wtf.
im in this because i love him
i have compassion for him
im willing to keep trying and trying and to never give up
he's worth it to me.
i believe in him.
does he believe in me?
he's killing me.
i've had to go to the hospital
take freaking pills to calm me down before my heart explodes.
i feel numb to everything except this sadness that is overwhelming me.
he gave me a second chance and i fucked it up.
i wish on everything i could take it back.
we do fight a lot.
but we have a lot of love too.
we've made through what most never would.
if this has been going on since january then it's been going on for five years.
i think he's right..
i promised something and fucked it up
they say you're going to fuck up everyone always does
does he see that i've changed?
over two days cn you really tell?
i opened myself up to him and because i made a mistake my walls are burnt.
how can he trust me again?
after everything, EVERYTHING, I trust him.
blindly trust him.
they say if we split up he will never find anyone who will put up with his issues
they say i could find someone better
i can do so much better.
he even assumed that....
....that im in this relationship bc i don't think i can do better.
then when i confronted him last night he said that- I said that..
and he said no, i'm better than that.
but today it's something different.
he meant something else.
they say he never actually listens to me
he's too busy thinking about the next thing he's going to say
but he tells me i do to it to him.
five years... and i'm still in love.
so wtf.
im in this because i love him
i have compassion for him
im willing to keep trying and trying and to never give up
he's worth it to me.
i believe in him.
does he believe in me?
he's killing me.
i've had to go to the hospital
take freaking pills to calm me down before my heart explodes.
i feel numb to everything except this sadness that is overwhelming me.
he gave me a second chance and i fucked it up.
i wish on everything i could take it back.
we do fight a lot.
but we have a lot of love too.
we've made through what most never would.