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i have two choices..
both of them are extremely hard.
A.one is hard right now.
B.one is going to be hard months from now.
A. the one that is hard right now is....
getting a group together for my friends
keep contact with them
stay here longer while things arent horrible yet..
my mom is ok right now
she is dancing
and going on road trips and cruises
having fun with her friends
enjoying life
why go there if i might have the possibility to bring her down
let her live her life while she can still "live"
so build a network
be the out going person that you are
and not this sheltered insecure girl that you have become
and GET OUT THERE.
show them what you are made out of and have fun yourself!
be thankful that's it's not the worse it can be!
B. going to be hard later..
in a week go home..
be there.. where you don't want to be
possibly bring your mom down or get in a fight
spend more time with mom.
spend more holidays.
and then when everything is said and done
come back here
start at the very same place
except probably alot more depressed...
see, there is only one good answer.
and i have to suck it up..
and just do it.
STOP WORRYING ABOUT THINGS.
whatever is going to happen, will happen.
regardless of worrying.
stop feeling guilty for not worrying.
MY GOD KAYLEEN THIS IS NOT YOU.
i have two choices..
both of them are extremely hard.
A.one is hard right now.
B.one is going to be hard months from now.
A. the one that is hard right now is....
getting a group together for my friends
keep contact with them
stay here longer while things arent horrible yet..
my mom is ok right now
she is dancing
and going on road trips and cruises
having fun with her friends
enjoying life
why go there if i might have the possibility to bring her down
let her live her life while she can still "live"
so build a network
be the out going person that you are
and not this sheltered insecure girl that you have become
and GET OUT THERE.
show them what you are made out of and have fun yourself!
be thankful that's it's not the worse it can be!
B. going to be hard later..
in a week go home..
be there.. where you don't want to be
possibly bring your mom down or get in a fight
spend more time with mom.
spend more holidays.
and then when everything is said and done
come back here
start at the very same place
except probably alot more depressed...
see, there is only one good answer.
and i have to suck it up..
and just do it.
STOP WORRYING ABOUT THINGS.
whatever is going to happen, will happen.
regardless of worrying.
stop feeling guilty for not worrying.
MY GOD KAYLEEN THIS IS NOT YOU.