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to those who still read: (and i think there are a few of you still)
christmas and home have been delightful.
i recieved many delightful things from spain and finland and america (via amazon.com)
*i hope everyone else has had enjoyable times at home, or away with people they care about enough to be close to
its weird thinking that this will be the last time that i visit finland. well, maybe. its always been like that throughout my life. is this the last goodbye, or will i see this place in three months, and see your face next tuesday? its always touch and go. its always yes and no. ive learned to seek the pleasure but end up finding the bitterness in my plight.
i worry about next semester because its busy busy but i think that can only mean good things. busy means happy in my book. i would rather be busy than sitting and doing nothing--circa watching tv,
gossiping about people i don't like, or freaking out about stupid things that don't matter-like who is with who and who likes me and who doesnt.
i have once again fallen in love with a fragment of my mind, and will be sad when it goes away forever, which i fear will be sonner rather than later.
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2007 will bring people in and out of my life, just as 2006 did. those i like, those i dont. those i care about and those that i never thought to. being twenty one is weird and there is no longer a thrill when i walk into a liqour store, because everyone thinks im thirty anyways.
and if anyone wants me to keep making 'real' posts in here. please let me know.
i just MIGHT start devoting my time to this self-indulgent thing again.
and that means everyone but you benna.
xo