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i don't update ever. no one really does anymore. but i really need to vent, so you don't have to read this.
school is starting to get very stressful for a number of reasons. the main reason is my stupid placement. i act like it doesn't bother me that much in front of like sister miriam, but i come home and i just lose it. its not fair to me that i'm not getting the experience that i need for my observations this semester. yes, i love the elementary school that i'm at. but i'm good with that age group. i need help with high school kids. i don't know how to handle stupid smart ass kids who think they are better than everyone else in the world, as proved today in my secondary methods class where everyone acted like 13 year olds and i had no idea what to do. and those were my friends. so now i'm just worried that i'll be there for only a few weeks and i'm going to have to throw together a lesson plan for sister miriam to see and its just going to be a complete mess. i know a few of the pieces that they are doing at the school i'm hoping to be at through my private students, so i just might take their music and write a lesson plan for a flute sectional. thats the best thing i can do for myself right now because my school and hicksville's administration is not doing a very goood job right now at getting me placed. hicksville is taking their sweet ass time, when i was supposed to start on monday. so i'm all ready a week over in my elementary school. i don't want to be a burden to my teacher, i feel like she wasn't planning on me staying longer than the middle of october. i know that i help her in class and all, but i think she wants to have her classroom to herself. i've been there since the first day of school. ugh, its just so annoying and it makes me so upset that people can't get their acts together. and i've emailed wyman a few times and he hasn't gotten back to me. soooo stressful. i know that he and sister miriam are doing everything in their power to get me to that school, but i don't know how this is going to work out. what is going to happen next semester when i need to be full time student teaching? i have no idea, but i really don't want it to work out like it did this semester. i'm just worried that this is going to effect me badly in the long run. well, i'm glad i got that out.
school is starting to get very stressful for a number of reasons. the main reason is my stupid placement. i act like it doesn't bother me that much in front of like sister miriam, but i come home and i just lose it. its not fair to me that i'm not getting the experience that i need for my observations this semester. yes, i love the elementary school that i'm at. but i'm good with that age group. i need help with high school kids. i don't know how to handle stupid smart ass kids who think they are better than everyone else in the world, as proved today in my secondary methods class where everyone acted like 13 year olds and i had no idea what to do. and those were my friends. so now i'm just worried that i'll be there for only a few weeks and i'm going to have to throw together a lesson plan for sister miriam to see and its just going to be a complete mess. i know a few of the pieces that they are doing at the school i'm hoping to be at through my private students, so i just might take their music and write a lesson plan for a flute sectional. thats the best thing i can do for myself right now because my school and hicksville's administration is not doing a very goood job right now at getting me placed. hicksville is taking their sweet ass time, when i was supposed to start on monday. so i'm all ready a week over in my elementary school. i don't want to be a burden to my teacher, i feel like she wasn't planning on me staying longer than the middle of october. i know that i help her in class and all, but i think she wants to have her classroom to herself. i've been there since the first day of school. ugh, its just so annoying and it makes me so upset that people can't get their acts together. and i've emailed wyman a few times and he hasn't gotten back to me. soooo stressful. i know that he and sister miriam are doing everything in their power to get me to that school, but i don't know how this is going to work out. what is going to happen next semester when i need to be full time student teaching? i have no idea, but i really don't want it to work out like it did this semester. i'm just worried that this is going to effect me badly in the long run. well, i'm glad i got that out.