mind playing tricks on me (bonus random fact included)
I sleep with a fan on.
As a kid, my dad had a big fan he would put in the hallway and turn on at
night. I think it was because he spent so much time on ships (Navy) and
was used to hearing the engine hum so the fan sort of took the place of
that.
Then when I moved in with the ex, he had the same white noise addiction so
I had a fan then too. And after he left, I still needed the fan!
But on Sunday, the fan DIED! We tried to clean it, we took it apart and
removed as much of the cat hair and girl hair and gunk wrapped around the
motor but nothing. It hums but doesn't spin. So I tossed and turned on
Sunday night, unable to sleep because of random cat noises, people upstairs
etc. I guess I'm a light sleeper.
I was freaking out about having to buy a fan after work yesterday when a
friend pointed out I could download a white noise app to my iPhone. DUH!
So I downloaded a couple different apps to try last night. There are so
many "noise" choices it was ridiculous! There are waves, rain, storms,
wind chimes, lightning, humming -- the list goes on and on!
I found one that had both wind and a fan. I thought "well, wind might be
nice, it will have that sort of rocking sound that waves do but now as
loud, plus I'm used to hearing wind! Yes I will try that.". So I put on
the wind noise, and it slowly helped me drift into the sleep zone...not all
the way asleep, but somewhere between sleep and awake...and as I listened
to the sound of the wind blowing and moving my brain thought it would be
hilarious to start to interpret some of the sounds as CREEPY WHISPERING!
Suddenly, I went from almost asleep to having my heart pounding in my
chest, imagining a creepy Japanese girl with her black hair in her face
looming over me. I wanted to turn it off but I had freaked myself out so
much I couldn't bring myself to open my eyes. After a brief pep talk in my
mind, I convinced myself to grow up, open my eyes, and turn off the damn
sound.
Which I did, and the killer ghost was not there so I switched it to the fan
noise and promptly fell asleep.
I am a wuss.
As a kid, my dad had a big fan he would put in the hallway and turn on at
night. I think it was because he spent so much time on ships (Navy) and
was used to hearing the engine hum so the fan sort of took the place of
that.
Then when I moved in with the ex, he had the same white noise addiction so
I had a fan then too. And after he left, I still needed the fan!
But on Sunday, the fan DIED! We tried to clean it, we took it apart and
removed as much of the cat hair and girl hair and gunk wrapped around the
motor but nothing. It hums but doesn't spin. So I tossed and turned on
Sunday night, unable to sleep because of random cat noises, people upstairs
etc. I guess I'm a light sleeper.
I was freaking out about having to buy a fan after work yesterday when a
friend pointed out I could download a white noise app to my iPhone. DUH!
So I downloaded a couple different apps to try last night. There are so
many "noise" choices it was ridiculous! There are waves, rain, storms,
wind chimes, lightning, humming -- the list goes on and on!
I found one that had both wind and a fan. I thought "well, wind might be
nice, it will have that sort of rocking sound that waves do but now as
loud, plus I'm used to hearing wind! Yes I will try that.". So I put on
the wind noise, and it slowly helped me drift into the sleep zone...not all
the way asleep, but somewhere between sleep and awake...and as I listened
to the sound of the wind blowing and moving my brain thought it would be
hilarious to start to interpret some of the sounds as CREEPY WHISPERING!
Suddenly, I went from almost asleep to having my heart pounding in my
chest, imagining a creepy Japanese girl with her black hair in her face
looming over me. I wanted to turn it off but I had freaked myself out so
much I couldn't bring myself to open my eyes. After a brief pep talk in my
mind, I convinced myself to grow up, open my eyes, and turn off the damn
sound.
Which I did, and the killer ghost was not there so I switched it to the fan
noise and promptly fell asleep.
I am a wuss.