holidays and gift giving and hang ups
I know I am an adult and I have my own money and I can buy what I want, whenever I want (I mean, within reason) but there is is still this part of me that was so well trained as a child...
...you see, around this time of year, maybe even the start of November, my Mom would not let me get any new toys or games or movies. From November onward, it was time for Christmas prep so I couldn't get anything because Santa/Mom/Grandparents etc. needed to have a list of things to pick from.
So even now, I just can't bring myself to buy anything for myself. If I do, I tend to feel really guilty, like I'm taking a chance that someone else might buy it for me.
Which is silly because I don't have a lot of people buying me gifts anymore so I'm just setting myself up for disappointment and binge shopping on December 26.
And, the flip side, is that when Tim buys himself something around this time of year, I get a little annoyed because it is one less thing I could have bought him for a gift.
Anyone else like this?
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...you see, around this time of year, maybe even the start of November, my Mom would not let me get any new toys or games or movies. From November onward, it was time for Christmas prep so I couldn't get anything because Santa/Mom/Grandparents etc. needed to have a list of things to pick from.
So even now, I just can't bring myself to buy anything for myself. If I do, I tend to feel really guilty, like I'm taking a chance that someone else might buy it for me.
Which is silly because I don't have a lot of people buying me gifts anymore so I'm just setting myself up for disappointment and binge shopping on December 26.
And, the flip side, is that when Tim buys himself something around this time of year, I get a little annoyed because it is one less thing I could have bought him for a gift.
Anyone else like this?
This entry was originally posted at https://orangerful.dreamwidth.org/1342942.html. Please comment there using OpenID.