oi vey big time
ok well today omg i had the greatest day @ school i was wicked hyper for the first time in like FOREVER i think i just forgot about everyhting and was me which was cool but yah life still blows whatever i cant wait til this summer 9 days n then everything is done and i dont have school which is a big burden lifted off my shoulders. john wont b home for the first week after school gets out im not sure RIGHT now if thats a good or bad thing. actually yah its a little bit of both because ill miss him like nuts but idk. i think i just need a break from everyone including myself whatever i just feel left out right now. yah long story n im being dumb like really i am. why is everyone taking this so easy but me because i havent said anything but it really is bugging me like i cant even tell you and its not because of the fact that idk its just really complicated and yet again im being DUMB! whatever i get to go to houston which im sooo siked about! which is weird because i never want to go but i really do i get to go to nasa i really think i just want to get the hell outta bellingham really i do. and its because some of the ppl and i think its just school... but my friends THANK GOD for them i swear if not for them ive would of gone insane by now especially britt n sara you guys i swear sumtimes are the only ppl tha understand me.. THANK YOU! but whatever theres just a lot going on right now im kinda pist @ myself for a couple different reasons 1 huge one is...... um if you think about it youll figure it out. but i relaly dont think its a big deal ne more. its not right now its the only to get out because i have to pretend im perfectly happy even tho i really am not because i dont want him or anyone else to see me unhappy so if i keep everything in put a fake smile on noone will know or tell be like o kt you seem so happy... but you really dont know that inside im really not.. just hoping if i put a happy face on n pretend everything will get better... im glad "hes" happy but i hate this.. like not the purpose just bcuz he has sum1 oi it just hurts i guess. im still not exactly set with it. just as long as hes happy thas ALL that matters and as long as his mom doenst find out. and if she does i swear to god i will hunt them down and friggin kik their behind even tho i really dont like it doesnt mean im going to let NE one screw this up for him n if they try to they will haev to answer to me and hey im a cool bean and most of the time im a nice kid.. but ooo if you try to do ne thing... i really will get angry @ you. sum ppl in our school really aggrivate me. none of my friends im all cool with them just sum ppl they really need to grow up
what ever im just venting and being stupid ONCE again.. whatever hold everything in put that fake smile on move on get over it and in the end everything will hopefully go back to the way it was in october YAH RIGHT. i wish it could.. cuz bak then everything was awesome n not sucky right now i just really hate this idea of both my really good friends having sum1 it just makes me feel odd. aw well.. move on get over it
on a more happppier note!
my tounge was purple hehehe :)
n tomarrow is the disney trip meeting OMG cant wait its going to be AWESOME! seinor yr one i most deff cant wait for :)
peace
-kt
what ever im just venting and being stupid ONCE again.. whatever hold everything in put that fake smile on move on get over it and in the end everything will hopefully go back to the way it was in october YAH RIGHT. i wish it could.. cuz bak then everything was awesome n not sucky right now i just really hate this idea of both my really good friends having sum1 it just makes me feel odd. aw well.. move on get over it
on a more happppier note!
my tounge was purple hehehe :)
n tomarrow is the disney trip meeting OMG cant wait its going to be AWESOME! seinor yr one i most deff cant wait for :)
peace
-kt