random.
i just feel like writing.
okay, so it's friday today. tomorrow is saturday (really?) and that's when i'll be leaving for the US. it'll be my first time to go there.. it's going to be a lot of firsts, actually. first time to ride an airplane for more than 2 hours, first time to travel with just my mom, first time to not be in the Philippines for more than 1 month..
i'm excited, yes.. well, just because i'm going to be in california. haha. i really want to go to north hollywood and attend a dance class in millennium or debbie reynolds. gaaaah. i hope i get the chance. i've been watching videos on youtube and i've excited myself to the point where i actually dream about them. HAHAHA. weirdo.
i was hoping to 'leave' on a happy note, but how can i when my wallet just got stolen this evening.. :( i'm so sad because the wallet was really pretty and it reminded me so much of ate mel (since we had the same wallet, only hers was pink) and it contained things that had SO MUCH sentimental value. and i'm so irritated with myself because i let my guard down for just a second and BAM! someone gets my wallet. it's so annoying because i'm not like that! i'm alert about my things and.. uuugh. there's no use rambling. i guess the thing that hurts me is that that person might just get what he/she needs (money, atm) and just get rid of the wallet itself and the other things that are useless to him/her.. :( so my pretty, red, leather wallet may be somewhere out there, lonely and unloved. :(
i should really get rid of the zamboanga bag. it brings too much bad luck. :(
jolo was the best boyfriend ever when this happened.. he was very gentle, very caring, very soothing.. he was always hugging me and rubbing my shoulder.. he lent me his hanky, too.. since i was very scared to tell my mom, he offered to break it to her gently.. but since my mom went up to the condo already, i had to call her cel and let jolo talk to her from there.. haay. he accompanied me to the 17th floor and gave the tightest, warmest, most heartfelt hug before i rang the doorbell.. i really wanted to cry because even though i wasn't hugging him back (because i was too nervous of 'what lies ahead'), he hugged me tighter and tighter.. he kissed my forehead a couple of times, too.. but i was just TOO SAD and TOO SCARED to feel the butterflies in my stomach and feel my heart skip a beat (or more).. :( before he rode the elevator, he told me to text him if there was anything he could do to help tomorrow, anything.. he's quite a catch.
i got to chat with him a while ago and he said that he was just so sad, just as sad as i was.. then we got to talk about what would happen tomorrow (well, later) and how he could help.. i have to go to makati again and pick up the checks in Prudentialife, then get a haircut (just to fix the layers), then do other stuff. jolo has class later so he'll be in UP.. i asked him if he could request COGs for all the semesters.. i forgot if it's okay that someone else do it for you.. i hope so.
he said he'll text me as soon as his class is done and to tell him where i was so that he could meet me.. even if i was in pasig or still in makati, he was going to meet me raw.. :') unti-unti ko na naffeel na he wants to spend as much time with me as he can before i leave.. it's like it hit him already that i'll be leaving soon.. haaaay..
there's this recording in my phone, it's of jolo telling me something. whenever i got lonely or whenever we fought or even if i just missed him, i listened to it.. even though i already memorized every giggle, every pause, every tone and intonation, i still listened to it and even repeated it 2 more times! :P that recording is almost 2 years old! hahaha. he recorded it when his family left for puerto galera and he knew that i was going to miss him..
now, he's going to record a new one because now, i'm the one who's leaving.. and because the old one will be almost 2 years old. hahaha. i asked him if he could make it longer (the old one was just 30seconds long, i think).. :) and we also had this agreement that we'd email each other all the time (if possible!) and chat a lot.. hehehe. i told him to buy or just borrow a webcam! hahaha. he'll buy one raw yay! :P
waaaaah. i'm going to miss him. 1 month is too long :'(
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we still don't have a 'song'.. as in, the genuine song.. not the song you WANT to be your song so you manipulate the situation so that it'll be THE song.. no. the genuine song, the song that plays when something romantic happens.. or whatever. just something that happens (that's good) that you can't control when a song starts playing or when you hear this song over the radio or from your neighbor's house or while you're listening to your iPod..
i really want to have a song. hahaha. i hope it starts playing soon.
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yay, i'm sleepy na.
okay, so it's friday today. tomorrow is saturday (really?) and that's when i'll be leaving for the US. it'll be my first time to go there.. it's going to be a lot of firsts, actually. first time to ride an airplane for more than 2 hours, first time to travel with just my mom, first time to not be in the Philippines for more than 1 month..
i'm excited, yes.. well, just because i'm going to be in california. haha. i really want to go to north hollywood and attend a dance class in millennium or debbie reynolds. gaaaah. i hope i get the chance. i've been watching videos on youtube and i've excited myself to the point where i actually dream about them. HAHAHA. weirdo.
i was hoping to 'leave' on a happy note, but how can i when my wallet just got stolen this evening.. :( i'm so sad because the wallet was really pretty and it reminded me so much of ate mel (since we had the same wallet, only hers was pink) and it contained things that had SO MUCH sentimental value. and i'm so irritated with myself because i let my guard down for just a second and BAM! someone gets my wallet. it's so annoying because i'm not like that! i'm alert about my things and.. uuugh. there's no use rambling. i guess the thing that hurts me is that that person might just get what he/she needs (money, atm) and just get rid of the wallet itself and the other things that are useless to him/her.. :( so my pretty, red, leather wallet may be somewhere out there, lonely and unloved. :(
i should really get rid of the zamboanga bag. it brings too much bad luck. :(
jolo was the best boyfriend ever when this happened.. he was very gentle, very caring, very soothing.. he was always hugging me and rubbing my shoulder.. he lent me his hanky, too.. since i was very scared to tell my mom, he offered to break it to her gently.. but since my mom went up to the condo already, i had to call her cel and let jolo talk to her from there.. haay. he accompanied me to the 17th floor and gave the tightest, warmest, most heartfelt hug before i rang the doorbell.. i really wanted to cry because even though i wasn't hugging him back (because i was too nervous of 'what lies ahead'), he hugged me tighter and tighter.. he kissed my forehead a couple of times, too.. but i was just TOO SAD and TOO SCARED to feel the butterflies in my stomach and feel my heart skip a beat (or more).. :( before he rode the elevator, he told me to text him if there was anything he could do to help tomorrow, anything.. he's quite a catch.
i got to chat with him a while ago and he said that he was just so sad, just as sad as i was.. then we got to talk about what would happen tomorrow (well, later) and how he could help.. i have to go to makati again and pick up the checks in Prudentialife, then get a haircut (just to fix the layers), then do other stuff. jolo has class later so he'll be in UP.. i asked him if he could request COGs for all the semesters.. i forgot if it's okay that someone else do it for you.. i hope so.
he said he'll text me as soon as his class is done and to tell him where i was so that he could meet me.. even if i was in pasig or still in makati, he was going to meet me raw.. :') unti-unti ko na naffeel na he wants to spend as much time with me as he can before i leave.. it's like it hit him already that i'll be leaving soon.. haaaay..
there's this recording in my phone, it's of jolo telling me something. whenever i got lonely or whenever we fought or even if i just missed him, i listened to it.. even though i already memorized every giggle, every pause, every tone and intonation, i still listened to it and even repeated it 2 more times! :P that recording is almost 2 years old! hahaha. he recorded it when his family left for puerto galera and he knew that i was going to miss him..
now, he's going to record a new one because now, i'm the one who's leaving.. and because the old one will be almost 2 years old. hahaha. i asked him if he could make it longer (the old one was just 30seconds long, i think).. :) and we also had this agreement that we'd email each other all the time (if possible!) and chat a lot.. hehehe. i told him to buy or just borrow a webcam! hahaha. he'll buy one raw yay! :P
waaaaah. i'm going to miss him. 1 month is too long :'(
--
we still don't have a 'song'.. as in, the genuine song.. not the song you WANT to be your song so you manipulate the situation so that it'll be THE song.. no. the genuine song, the song that plays when something romantic happens.. or whatever. just something that happens (that's good) that you can't control when a song starts playing or when you hear this song over the radio or from your neighbor's house or while you're listening to your iPod..
i really want to have a song. hahaha. i hope it starts playing soon.
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yay, i'm sleepy na.