Apr 14, 2004 13:43
Ahhh yes, LIFE...where should I begin? Lately Ive been sort of spring cleaning my life so to speak! Im ridding my life of all the junk and the dirt, and making things better for whats left, and as a result Ive felt really great lately, happier really. Whats the junk/dirt you ask? Well, people that Ive now realized arent really friends...I mean, they were at one time...but that was at a scary point in my life, leaving high school and becoming a freshmen aaaall over again, at college. In those situations you have to make friends quickly, u know? It was more like a convinence to hang around them so it would make things more comfortable, though I didnt know that at the time...
but, now things have become sort of uncomfortable. Im not a freshmen any more Im a junior in college and I dont live on campus, and Ive come to realize that I don't have anything in common with the two particular girls that I used to be friends with. I enjoyed many fun times with them, but for the past year it has stopped, and the funny thing is no one is to blame for it...people change, I have changed. Why hold onto a friendship that just isnt there anymore? Letting go of those people has made me realize something really important...my old friends from high school I had been leaving in the dust...sometimes intentionally, and sometimes by mistake.
Throughout the past few years being in college I sometimes wanted to let go of my past and all of my friends in it, its just so apealing sometimes to want to make a new beginning for yourself and start over! But lately, since the breaking off of the two friendships that were bringin me down, I noticed that my old friends were still here, and they hadnt given up on me. They know how it is, and they understand me, they know me all too well...and thats sooooo refreshing! Im slowly making things up to them, and I am so appreciative that they can be so forgiving and waited so patiently for me to come around...Im feeling like myself again, I havnt felt this way for a long time.
Spring cleaning your life is a scary and risky process! But in the process ive learned a lot and Im grateful that I had the guts to do it. Ne ways, enough blabbing, I probably just bored yall out of your minds! Next entry will be a fun one I promise!
See yaaaa