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This whole romance thing isn't for me. I'm done with it all. Not mad, not upset, not hurt - I just don't want to care anymore. At all. I absolutely abhor it. I hate feeling - I want to go back to emotionless Raven who didn't care about feelings or anything remotely similar. I need James, because he'd knock sense into me. He was my bad influence and I miss that. I don't want to wake up everyday and wonder if something is going to happen to make me smile or bust out a razor blade and cut somebody. I don't ever want to be on the verge of tears like I was the other day. No way, no how, this game isn't for Raven-Symone Thigpen.
I want to grow up, get a great job, have money, and die in my sleep.
I don't want to waste my life searching for some fantasy 'one true love' and that 'happily-ever-after' life with the semi-protective white picket fence.
I want to have my twisted outlook on life and view everything as a joke and take nothing serious.
I don't want to care, cry, feel, like, anything.
I just want to be myself, and enjoy it.
But I can't. Because I'm "emotionally attacthed" and it's driving me up the wall.
Do I want to be in love? That's like asking if I want to gain 30 lbs - No please.