why are bois so complex
well, a quick update... went to the dr's today, had x-rays taken, nothing is broken for sure, but i gotta come back next Mon to make sure nothing is fractured... so all n all, i should be good to go in a week, yay! can't wait to play again! we have a game tomorrow, but our coach told me its nottin to worry about too much, should be an easy game, but not a time for us to let down and play like idiots. no biggie. i'll just sit on the bench and chill with my girls i dont get to see on the field. makes me sad. i wish everyone could play. but its just not possible. grrr. oh well. sorry girls.
lets see... ah yes, i can touch my head now. but i still cant reach enough to put my own hair up. my sis still hasta do it. hehe. she hates me for it. whatevers.
man the bad news column of my life has been piling up. first off, my boi confuzzlements... i was talkin to one of my guy friends that i really adore and he was complimenting me today and i say "dangit (so and so) why do you hafta be taken?!" and he replies "why'dya wait so long??" i was like AAACCCKKK! you've GOT to me kiddin me... that just breaks my heart. maybe i wish i woulda spoken up. but i coulda sworn i was being obvious about it. i dont go goo goo crazy go nuts over just ANY freaken guy... i guess i should get over it cuz he's taken and that's that... ugh. i'm never gonna find another boi like him.
secondly, my mum is still in ootah cuz of the family emergency. i called my mum earlier cuz all of a sudden i got this really ugly feeling inside of me as i was waiting in the car for the bois and my dad to come back form the store (they went to buy dinner... which was yummy!) but anywho... i talked to my mum, asked her if there was anything new... she basically said that my grandpa is surviving only off life support... that just about tore me apart. i never thought my grandpa would be close to leaving us this soon! all i keep thinkin about is how dramatic my life, OUR life is gonna change... my mum is gonna be way different cuz her dad's gonna be gone... she says he pretty much is right now... oh, i forgot to say what's wrong with him... he's having kidney failure. so yah... i hafta wait and hear more from her. my mum talked to my mum dad as well, but i havent had enough courage to ask him what she told him... but basically it sounds like my mum is overloaded emotionally over there and she wants to come home, but knows her dad needs her there til her either gets better or is gone completely... gosh, i donno how i'm so calm when earlier i was freaking out... so i hadda do sumtin, and i just started cleaning the house. i have lots left to do before my mum comes home... ugh. why is life so freaken hard? why my grandpa?
this kills me too cuz i was just there this whole summer. he looked somewhat healthy, like he wasnt gonna leave us anytime soon. but man. things change, i guess. apperantly really quickly, too. i dont even wanna begin to thikn about how my grandma is holdin up. i cry everytime i think of her. cuz i know soon after my grandpa goes, she's not too far away. i dont want her to leave either. they need to see me get maried and see their great grandkids. oh man. i gotta go.
lets see... ah yes, i can touch my head now. but i still cant reach enough to put my own hair up. my sis still hasta do it. hehe. she hates me for it. whatevers.
man the bad news column of my life has been piling up. first off, my boi confuzzlements... i was talkin to one of my guy friends that i really adore and he was complimenting me today and i say "dangit (so and so) why do you hafta be taken?!" and he replies "why'dya wait so long??" i was like AAACCCKKK! you've GOT to me kiddin me... that just breaks my heart. maybe i wish i woulda spoken up. but i coulda sworn i was being obvious about it. i dont go goo goo crazy go nuts over just ANY freaken guy... i guess i should get over it cuz he's taken and that's that... ugh. i'm never gonna find another boi like him.
secondly, my mum is still in ootah cuz of the family emergency. i called my mum earlier cuz all of a sudden i got this really ugly feeling inside of me as i was waiting in the car for the bois and my dad to come back form the store (they went to buy dinner... which was yummy!) but anywho... i talked to my mum, asked her if there was anything new... she basically said that my grandpa is surviving only off life support... that just about tore me apart. i never thought my grandpa would be close to leaving us this soon! all i keep thinkin about is how dramatic my life, OUR life is gonna change... my mum is gonna be way different cuz her dad's gonna be gone... she says he pretty much is right now... oh, i forgot to say what's wrong with him... he's having kidney failure. so yah... i hafta wait and hear more from her. my mum talked to my mum dad as well, but i havent had enough courage to ask him what she told him... but basically it sounds like my mum is overloaded emotionally over there and she wants to come home, but knows her dad needs her there til her either gets better or is gone completely... gosh, i donno how i'm so calm when earlier i was freaking out... so i hadda do sumtin, and i just started cleaning the house. i have lots left to do before my mum comes home... ugh. why is life so freaken hard? why my grandpa?
this kills me too cuz i was just there this whole summer. he looked somewhat healthy, like he wasnt gonna leave us anytime soon. but man. things change, i guess. apperantly really quickly, too. i dont even wanna begin to thikn about how my grandma is holdin up. i cry everytime i think of her. cuz i know soon after my grandpa goes, she's not too far away. i dont want her to leave either. they need to see me get maried and see their great grandkids. oh man. i gotta go.