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Life feels sucky right now. GRRRR!!! Like tonight is a Friday night. And it just feels so boring right now, me and stephanie are going to hang out later tonight but we have no clue what to do. College stuff is driving me crazy I just dont even want to go, I really dont. ALL that money going towards something that I don't even want. I wish I could be one of those really smart people who dont need college like Bill Gates. But since I'm not and I'll likely be in poverty if I dont go to college, So I have to go, and I dont have a choice.oh then I'm a realistic type of person, so me most likely going to U of L means that Troy and I will break up. and I do love him dont get me wrong but I'm realistic and being in two different cities for four years that will only lead to heartache and tears and a really bad breakup but I choose to ignor what I think will happen and pretend it wont, and the fact that I have this notation that with Sarah M. going to UK that Troy will start to like her again although he's told me that he has been there done that but thats just what I think and its nothing against sarah because shes really nice. Yeah I know I dont know how I'm rationalizing things. I'm so messed up...somebody please shoot me now..anyone?