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im freaking out, weighed myself, been thinking i look larger lately, weighed in at 187... freaking out... never been this big before.... decided im not eating anyhing until i am atleast back to 170... possibly not eating again... i dont care if its bad for me... i dont have any time for a bloody personal life so i dont have time to go tothe gym and by the time i get home from work all i have time for is dinner and sleeping ne ways... so no more food. id rather die than be 200... i have to be thin for the summer, theres that damn aci reunion dealie... i cant believe im gonna be a hefer for trebas grad... wow... i hate myself for what ive done to me...