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I feel like my chest is going to explode. And really the worst part, is I want to go up to the girl and scream in her face that we had been talking everysingle day since it had happened and how could that mean that we werent still involved.. Even worse I want to punch her in the face. Im so mad at him but I feel like Im even more mad at the girl for not knowing that he was mine and that I wanted him back. Its so hard to deal with this situation because I believe everything he says for the most part but my heart doesnt. I know for a fact that he wrote what he did after we had gotten back together. And at that point he fucking KNEW that I wanted to be with him all along. It was not, like he said, that I realized I was going to loose him so I yanked him back. And what do you do when they say they were doing it to get over you. It doesnt change anything. GOD DAMNIT it makes me so sick to know that he called her up and invited her. It makes me so sick that this girl is gorgeous. It makes me so sick that shes into what hes in. God I love him but this feeling is so overpowering right now. This feeling of hate and anger is so strong. ITs clouding my mind. He made himself right. He said taking a break would ruin us. What if someone did something how would the other one deal with it. Well he fucking did it. He was the one that fucked things up. And now Im so lost.... again.