Oct 18, 2005 02:07
I've been thinking alot about this place lately. What I like and dislike (about kalamazoo and living here at western). I remember back when I was trying to decide between Western and Central. I hated everyone at my high school so much and everyone seemed to know me as the girl who doesnt talk to anyone and had some sort of problem her sophmore year and I just wanted to get away from everyone there and macomb itself. So once I found out 1/2 the school was going to hall road high or central, I decided Western would be the place for me. Noone knew me and i could start fresh and be who I wanted to be. Dont get me wrong, I do like it here, the people are nice, and im always finding ways to get fucked up on the weekends. People actually say hi to me and smile like they are happy to see me. After awhile, though, a person needs more then just the friendly hello's at the island or the alcohol, pot, and partying. I've finally figured out why, even though I have about 5 times the amount of people to talk to here then ive had in the past 4 years of my life, i still feel a little lonely. It's not because I dont have a special someone to cozy up to on these cold nights. It's because people here TRULY do not know me. It was working out great in the begining. I loved how noone knew about my terrible sophmore year in high school or that when I went to school, i went and left and didnt talk to anyone, or that at home i really only had 2 people to call a friend. Noone here, or at least the people who i have met, seems to want to get to know more then the surface of a person. I have noone to just sit and have a good conversation with. To talk about life or music or anything other than, and forgive me for being cliche, but the he said she said bull shit. I hate those conversations. cliche again... but they make talk cheap. I want to meet people and really get to know them. I want to know everything about them. even simple things as a favorite color.
....... i dont really know where this is going anymore, so ill sum this up in a few words: I just want to find someone to talk to here.