here you GO Rachael, it's all for YOU!
alright, so let me update you on 5 weeks of my life since my last written confessions.
been looking elsewhere for a job now that i've finally realized that my hopes of being a Professional Housecleaner are quite bleak. i called market basket today in hopes that i can get back into Produce, because well.......i have experience. it's a job. it will get me out of the apartment. i will have another purpose. david will be happy that i'm contributing financially. and that god damn blasted shit called MONEY will be able to be saved for bigger & better things.
you know, as much as i hate humidity, grotesque spiders, mosquitoes, and as of late--thunderstorms--....i've been ever-so willing to put those things aside and honestly, i'm looking forward to warmer weather more and more all the time...because that's where my daydreams take me when i drift off to think of happier times in my life. nothing is all that magical in the wintertime, not really. winter has nothing to offer ME. nobody wants to come around or drive anywhere far (and i will never blame them for that, ironically enough) and the only thing to do outside is go sledding and crack your tailbone on some hardened mound of icy snow, that someone of youthful grace has planted ¾ the way down the hill which are, if i may, undetected until you've hit one...and OH boy, dontcha just know it when you DO.
i'm a social person, so i like cookouts and swimming and nature walks and fireworks and balmy walks at twilight with my Mate or people i enjoy spending time with and the miniscule hum of carnivals across the river or-close by even- that audibly reek of laughter and screams and tinny music and horns and muffled voices and maybe even a band..... all of this off in the distance ..... surrounded by the irresistable smells of food and people and children and candy and tobacco & sulfur and gunsmoke and.......Life and fun and youth and time well-spent and timeless beauty of the audible and redolent charms so strong that you could almost pick each one out of the air individually.
yes.. it's been 5 weeks since my last confessions, and this is all i've got.
but hey, it's something isn't it?
you just ate a piece of my mind with those eyes of yours and digested it with your intelligence to understand, haven't you?
and don't condemn me for my arrogance, but, it was darn SCRUMPTIOUS wasn't it!! ;]
been looking elsewhere for a job now that i've finally realized that my hopes of being a Professional Housecleaner are quite bleak. i called market basket today in hopes that i can get back into Produce, because well.......i have experience. it's a job. it will get me out of the apartment. i will have another purpose. david will be happy that i'm contributing financially. and that god damn blasted shit called MONEY will be able to be saved for bigger & better things.
you know, as much as i hate humidity, grotesque spiders, mosquitoes, and as of late--thunderstorms--....i've been ever-so willing to put those things aside and honestly, i'm looking forward to warmer weather more and more all the time...because that's where my daydreams take me when i drift off to think of happier times in my life. nothing is all that magical in the wintertime, not really. winter has nothing to offer ME. nobody wants to come around or drive anywhere far (and i will never blame them for that, ironically enough) and the only thing to do outside is go sledding and crack your tailbone on some hardened mound of icy snow, that someone of youthful grace has planted ¾ the way down the hill which are, if i may, undetected until you've hit one...and OH boy, dontcha just know it when you DO.
i'm a social person, so i like cookouts and swimming and nature walks and fireworks and balmy walks at twilight with my Mate or people i enjoy spending time with and the miniscule hum of carnivals across the river or-close by even- that audibly reek of laughter and screams and tinny music and horns and muffled voices and maybe even a band..... all of this off in the distance ..... surrounded by the irresistable smells of food and people and children and candy and tobacco & sulfur and gunsmoke and.......Life and fun and youth and time well-spent and timeless beauty of the audible and redolent charms so strong that you could almost pick each one out of the air individually.
yes.. it's been 5 weeks since my last confessions, and this is all i've got.
but hey, it's something isn't it?
you just ate a piece of my mind with those eyes of yours and digested it with your intelligence to understand, haven't you?
and don't condemn me for my arrogance, but, it was darn SCRUMPTIOUS wasn't it!! ;]