A new path
I met with a naturopathic doctor yesterday and had a nice long chat about the opportunities in alternative medicine that don't require a college degree but can be lived off of. We also discussed indigo people (of whom I am one) and the difficulties they all face fitting in any cookie cutter mold that the current world order lays out for them.
We discussed close friends, family, support people, life in general. It was nice, because she thinks and believes much like me and my close friends; talking to a kindred spirit, more or less. A good feeling, to know that there are more people out there like me, like us.
I got some ideas. Reiki is still prominent in my mind, as is Acutonics, or sound therapy. Acupuncture requires a bit more schooling, but it's quicker than most college degrees and most states have a government recognized licensing program. And homeopathy, finally, the science of using essences of natural substances to treat or cure or just generally help with problems or illnesses, that's something that can be self-taught and used through intuition and common sense.
Most of them can be taught in just a few days, though those days may be scattered over several months. I will be researching and finding classes and certifications much more in depth as soon as the semester in nursing school comes to an end, which brings me to my next point.
I'm through with Nursing. I discussed it with this doctor and she felt that it's the best thing to do, to get out of a program that doesn't fit me. My mother, also, has come to see this as true. And my dad, though he may never say it to me, feels the same way, that I should find my calling.
While I'm doing all this, and trying to find a job that requires no education that pays better and offers better hours than the theater, I'll also be looking at 4-year colleges and doing some soul-searching about programs that interest me, as well as looking at real estate or apartments in some areas of the country and Canada that might be where I want to live when I do finally get out of here.
For a long time I feared taking this path because I felt that I would be left even further behind the curve. And that I would be stuck and trapped at home and without success; but the fact of the matter is, I need more time to figure out how I can fit in this world's mold...because it's not ready for me yet. So I have to squeeze into a proverbial too-tight pair of jeans for a while, and figure out where the big and tall sized pants are.
A terrible analogy, and believe it or not, I wasn't making reference to my own weight problems. But anywho.
It was a wonderful thing to see everyone at the surprise party this past weekend. I didn't leave until well after 4am, so I was there for more than 12 hours. A good time, times that should happen more often. The energy work was also nice, that's something that should happen more often as well. I've finally come to terms with my solitude at parties.
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Now all I have to do is survive the next few weeks of nursing school, which I think I can manage. I want to see as much of as many friends as possible during that time and as soon as my classes are over, since most of you will be leaving again after the holidays and I won't. I'll still be conflicting with that feeling of being behind the curve and alone in the way of progress through life, but I can cope with it better now, knowing that I'm working toward finding my path.
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Also, I finished my favorite anime for the second time last night, Witchblade. I was in tears for almost an hour, and on the edge of tears for another few hours after that. A truly touching and amazing show that made me realize a few things about my own existence, more so than the last time around.
I was in a giant bubble of love, the most powerful I've ever felt, after I finished the series. I still am, though it's faded a little. But there can be no greater truth than the fact that love is the most powerful force in existence. It is the most amazing feeling, to be surrounded by that much love. And to need nothing in return for that love...now that, my friends, is power without corruption.
The most incredible feeling you'll ever experience; like an eternal orgasm for your soul.
We discussed close friends, family, support people, life in general. It was nice, because she thinks and believes much like me and my close friends; talking to a kindred spirit, more or less. A good feeling, to know that there are more people out there like me, like us.
I got some ideas. Reiki is still prominent in my mind, as is Acutonics, or sound therapy. Acupuncture requires a bit more schooling, but it's quicker than most college degrees and most states have a government recognized licensing program. And homeopathy, finally, the science of using essences of natural substances to treat or cure or just generally help with problems or illnesses, that's something that can be self-taught and used through intuition and common sense.
Most of them can be taught in just a few days, though those days may be scattered over several months. I will be researching and finding classes and certifications much more in depth as soon as the semester in nursing school comes to an end, which brings me to my next point.
I'm through with Nursing. I discussed it with this doctor and she felt that it's the best thing to do, to get out of a program that doesn't fit me. My mother, also, has come to see this as true. And my dad, though he may never say it to me, feels the same way, that I should find my calling.
While I'm doing all this, and trying to find a job that requires no education that pays better and offers better hours than the theater, I'll also be looking at 4-year colleges and doing some soul-searching about programs that interest me, as well as looking at real estate or apartments in some areas of the country and Canada that might be where I want to live when I do finally get out of here.
For a long time I feared taking this path because I felt that I would be left even further behind the curve. And that I would be stuck and trapped at home and without success; but the fact of the matter is, I need more time to figure out how I can fit in this world's mold...because it's not ready for me yet. So I have to squeeze into a proverbial too-tight pair of jeans for a while, and figure out where the big and tall sized pants are.
A terrible analogy, and believe it or not, I wasn't making reference to my own weight problems. But anywho.
It was a wonderful thing to see everyone at the surprise party this past weekend. I didn't leave until well after 4am, so I was there for more than 12 hours. A good time, times that should happen more often. The energy work was also nice, that's something that should happen more often as well. I've finally come to terms with my solitude at parties.
*********************
Now all I have to do is survive the next few weeks of nursing school, which I think I can manage. I want to see as much of as many friends as possible during that time and as soon as my classes are over, since most of you will be leaving again after the holidays and I won't. I'll still be conflicting with that feeling of being behind the curve and alone in the way of progress through life, but I can cope with it better now, knowing that I'm working toward finding my path.
*********************
Also, I finished my favorite anime for the second time last night, Witchblade. I was in tears for almost an hour, and on the edge of tears for another few hours after that. A truly touching and amazing show that made me realize a few things about my own existence, more so than the last time around.
I was in a giant bubble of love, the most powerful I've ever felt, after I finished the series. I still am, though it's faded a little. But there can be no greater truth than the fact that love is the most powerful force in existence. It is the most amazing feeling, to be surrounded by that much love. And to need nothing in return for that love...now that, my friends, is power without corruption.
The most incredible feeling you'll ever experience; like an eternal orgasm for your soul.