Is it wrong to feel this way?
Today I went jogging after a long while. And once again I purposely went pass his house. Knowing that his back for good, I wanted to by pass even more. Hoping I might just see a glance through his window. Suddenly the gates opened and I saw a car approaching but I just hid behind the bushes. Can you imagine the whole family being home??! Whoa... Don't even wanna face this man. I waited to see if he was home too.. Felt so stalkerish at that point of time. After a while his room lights went on and I just kept looking to see if he was there. I tried to walk away but I just ended up walking back again to see.
I really don't like this feeling of someone that I used to love so dearly still hates me after like 4 years? I mean not like the memories with him was fantastic but it was two and a half yrs and he was my first right:/
I feel like I'm betraying des but I don't wish to get back with him. I wish to get things right like how Ernest and I are. Then again, Ernest was a really nice guy so that's kinda different. Of course I miss the times we had, I wouldn't mind going back to then when we were still young and having fun. Things start to change when you start growing up. Just that he didn't grow up when I did. Sometimes I feel I was a bitch but most of the times was just because he was an asshole. No hard feelings now but I would still love to be able to say hi when we meet. It was such a ugly goodbye. Money is really the root of all problems. PUI!
I really don't like this feeling of someone that I used to love so dearly still hates me after like 4 years? I mean not like the memories with him was fantastic but it was two and a half yrs and he was my first right:/
I feel like I'm betraying des but I don't wish to get back with him. I wish to get things right like how Ernest and I are. Then again, Ernest was a really nice guy so that's kinda different. Of course I miss the times we had, I wouldn't mind going back to then when we were still young and having fun. Things start to change when you start growing up. Just that he didn't grow up when I did. Sometimes I feel I was a bitch but most of the times was just because he was an asshole. No hard feelings now but I would still love to be able to say hi when we meet. It was such a ugly goodbye. Money is really the root of all problems. PUI!