Him, her, I
It all happened last Friday evening, when everybody at Apple's house were having fun, eating plenty of foods and chatting to each other. Scanning the almost pitch black area of Apple's house, I was sitting at the bench when I saw her, closely standing beside him. I felt anger rushed through my veins as I tried to unclench my fist so I could stop myself from walking to her and tell her to stop flirting with him. But I stopped myself gradually because I don't own him. No, we're in a relationship that "we are" but "we are not." Few foolish thoughts started swirling into my mind as I tried to busy myself with listening to rock and loud music with the use of my MP4. Who would have thought that your own friend was flirting to your crush, knowing the fact that you like him? My mind went berserk when few of my friends noticed that I can't take the atmosphere from Apple's house. We then gone to area and finally hailed a Jeepney so we could all go home. And my flirty friend even told us she still wants to stay so she could flirt the other two boys that would be coming at Apple's house. How'd you like that? My eyes started releasing small tears as I tried to stop them from coming out. My other friend, Gel told me that why did I not stopped her from eating him? And I was like, "Hey, I'm fine. I don't him anyway. And besides, they're having fun." when I really want to tell her is that, "Hey you flirt! Stop standing close to him or else I'll smash out your lungs!" But I guess, I was too kind last Friday that I had forgotten my liking to him.
Then I finally told myself that I will ignore both of them, at the same time. She greeted me yesterday with her usual smile but I rolled my eyes and ignored her. Then she smiled at me again but I totally ignored her. And as for him, I also ignored him but he suddenly grabed my shoulders and started shaking me but I snapped him off and told him to go away. We didn't talked after that shaky thingy. And today, as I started running upstairs so I could settle my bag and look for my friends, I saw him, standing quietly at the window like he saw a big dinosaur. I tip-toed until I reached my chair but he turned around and saw him. I was caught red-handed. And we got into a not-so long conversation:
"Hey, are you angry at me?" he asked, looking narrowly at me like he will sue me for killing his pet ant.
I looked up. "I don't know." then I stormed out of our classroom so I could get rid of his evil stare that seems to melt me from head to toe. Not knowing where to go, I ran downstairs with my heart hitting my ribcage as I searched for my friends. But no can do, they're still not in the school so I rushed upstairs and saw him standing at the door with this mischivious smile. I ignored his humanity.
"Are you irritated at me?" he asked casually, blocking me.
"YES! I'm irritated at you!" I shouted as I forced him to stop blocking me, which was successful done. And after that stupid conversation, he went to my place and started teasing me that he'll steal my t-shirt inside my bag so he could have two same t-shirt. I chased him as he tried to run away from me. Then I shouted, "If you're not gonna hand me my shirt, I'll steal your bag!"
"Hey, not fair! Give my bag back!" he shouted, sounding like a total kid. We then exchanged, his bag to my shirt.
What an odd conversation, right? He's so... I don't know. I still want to ignore him. And he kept looking at me like he knows what I'm thinking! He's really a mysterious person. But after that, I started avoiding him again. It's for the better. Let him know he lost something very important and let's say, I'm that important thing (in my dreams but let me dream!). My friend, April told me I should start talking to him again like the usual but I told her, let him suffer more like I suffer for him everyday. Oh well, that's all I'm about to say. I'm quite busy downloading new songs so I could fill up my MP4. I wonder if he's thinking about our current situation?