May 09, 2006 15:27
Ok i had a strange thought. So strange that i actually feel like posting it. You guys will think im nuts...but i dunno, i gotta get it out..
Lately it seems like everyone is cheating on eachother. It seems like everywhere i go, people are denying the fact they have girlfriends/boyfriends/wives/husbands. Like for instance, I went to Thomaston to visit carolyn. There i met a someone, a guy. He was staying at her house, we all went to the bars, hung out talked.. he told me he didnt have a girlfriend (not like i really cared, i was open about nate). and carolyn took me aside 5 secs later and he was like, "yeah he has had a girfriend for 5 years". I was like... But why would he say something like that? it just didnt make sense to me...now, I dont deny the presence of nate in my life. Though Nate isnt here, and when we were broken up, yeah i told people i was single. But when we were back together, i told people we were back together. But i guess where my frustration lies is that I see these people cheating all the time, girls and guys, people who are inlove . And it makes me wonder if its more human nature to cheat.. if humans are programmed to not be monogomus.. I'm not saying my past is innocent either.. no one is. its human nature to look, its human nature to flirt and so on.. and in no way am i saying all people who cheat are bad.
Now i am NOT saying its ok to cheat either.. im not condoning it, and especially if you are MARRIED. lying is never a good thing. But im just commenting on how many people i have seen who i thought were faithful turn up unfaithful. and it makes me wonder if my own relationship is as secure as i thought it was..... i see happy men who say they are inlove cheat... and i have seen PLENTY of girls cheat too.. girls are not excluded from this at all. I want to make that clear- i am not favoring a gender, we are all guilty we are all innocent.
So, I want to throw a question out there.. just a discussion. i dont want any angrey comments.. I just want honest answers. here are my quesitons:
Why do people cheat and can you love someone if you are cheating on them? do you think that it is forgivable? Now really think about this one. answer honestly..
im just wondering, because sometimes it seems like love isn't enough to keep two people faithful.. or is it? I hope that i am dead wrong....I'd like to believe love is enough.. its enough for me at least.
8 days... just 8 more days and he will he back here, with me.
Ferah