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First livejournal post in awhile, I know. Sorry, I suppose. I know this won't be the most happy post ever, but it's what is on my mind and when I'm upset I can't do my homework....it's all too hard to explain over a simple entry.....and it would be way too long, which I don't have time for, or I don't feel like it. I don't know. I have time, but I can't get myself to do the things that I should be doing, money is an issue and I just want some FRIGGING PEACE AND QUIET!!!!! Is that so hard to ask for????? I mean, come on, shut up, people! It's 2 in the morning....let me read and go to bed!!!!! Just 15 minutes a night....and now my roommate has crew, so she has to get up at like 5am every morning....just what I need. I mean, I'm so happy that she's doing it, but I wake up to everything....and I don't need to be getting up at 5am when I go to bed after 2am cuz people won't stop slamming doors or having mini parties or talking on the phone in the hallway, where everyone can hear them...esp. the people who haven't gone to bed yet, namely me. And this is only a small fraction of the amount of crap I deal with. There's a girl in my new group of friends that doesn't like me, when all I do to her is be nice. Does she want me to be mean or something? What did I do to her? I HATE NOISE!!!!! MAKE IT GO AWAY!!!!!!! I just don't want to be here now. And I can't go anywhere....I don't have a fucking car. What the hell! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it......I just want to go home, to have silence at 10 and not at 3 in the morning.........like I said, this is only a tiny bit of what is wrong with my life....the rest is too complicated....and then there's the fucking complicated feelings that I am working on....which is going okay, but that and everything else just make for an unhappy Kristie. Oh yeah, I forgot to call my mom yesterday on her birthday, even after my dad reminded me.....I'm the worst daughter ever. I called her today, but I feel so guilty. Yeah, that and I feel fat, and I look fat too. And you guys can't refute me, cuz you can't see me....so there. I just......ugh, I fucking hate this place. (And you can tell that I'm made, cuz I don't usually swear in writing or when I'm talking for that matter.) Now I'm tired of writing........so, I'm done......