hmm
Welllll, past three nights have been interesting.
Friday....I met some new kids, Rory, Melissa, Sal, Jason and Paulo. Theyre from essex, and theyre rich, and Sal's car is AWESOME! I was like, omg. so that of course made me be like "omg Sal's so cool, i love him!!!" being the drunkard i was. then i headed to jeffs house...and drank some more, and gave him some. now mind you, he hasnt drank since feb vacation, so the little he drank sent him flying, lol, it was iteresting.
sat, i went job hunting with my mom, it was fun bc we spent some time together, which is good :-) then we went shopping, and i got ready to go out. I went out w. chris...you guys know who im talking about, chris macdonald, yep. it was really fun. We met at little italy, then went to the movies. there we decided we didnt really want to see anything, then went to stella's (a pool hall for all of you out-of-towners) i beat him 2 times out of 4!! :-) i was proud, lol. then we went to josh and jeffs bc there were some people there, and we didnt really have nething else to do. it was cool, they all liked him. then he left and i dorve kaitlyn home, and then joana walks in all complaining about jeff and how he went to the movies w. some girl and i was like "wow, who cares??" and she was like "yeah, i dont care" and steven was like "you obviously do bc you wont shut up about it" then she started talking again about it, so i went out to my car and just sat there smoking...for about an hour and a half, then jeff rolled in, and i went to his car and we sat and talked and listened to music like we always do, then went to bill and bobs and got shakes and fries like i always do and went back to his house and watched a night at the roxbury. i dont know what to do, im glad i went out w. chris, bc i need to get off of jeff.
sunday, woke up to steven watching lesbian porn in the living room, where i was sleeping. it was quite the surprise. then jeff and i went to the store, came back, then him me kaitlyn steve and joel went to breakfast then we went shopping at the mall. then after that we dropped stev and kaitlyn off, and went back to jeffs house. he talked to joana then came in and was like "well, we should celebrate!" and i was like "celebrate what/" and he was like "me and joana not being together" hmmmm.
then i came home late, mom was mad, car was late, key in mailbox, not gonna get it for a while. boo dropped me off, and as i was walking to my house, josh drove by, so he came in, and i smoked.then we went to bev farms, so that was a nice long ride, and on the way back, we saw jeff at one stop, so we went there, and he was like "well, im going to kelcies" so, we met him at my house, played a little Spot, then josh left. Watched Identity and feel asleep in like the opening credits, lol.
skipped school today...he had a prject to get done, as did i, only being gay, we only worked on his. then joana called and yelled at him for spending so much time w. me, he didnt really care, but when he got off the phone, i was like "well, why does joana care if youre here if you guys are through?" and he was like "we were mad when we said that" so...no idea whats going on w. him again, but i dont really care, im not attatched to him nemore, i love him but i dont get wrapped up in him. He said as he left that he was gonna come by after work to pick up his paper, and he was like "i cant sleep over" and i was like "yeah, bc joana will bite your head off" and he was like "yeah" and then i said "that and we spent the last three nights together and thats not good bc people get attatched, like me" and he was like "yah, i know" i cant let myself get toointo him again, i cant get hurt again. Josh asked me last night "if jeff were ready to commit and he wanted to you w. you, what would you do?" and i was like "id drop everything for him bc i love him, but i know hes not ready, and im not going to sit around and wait for him" and its true. eh, i dont know.
im glad i had a good time w. chris, we're gonna chill again, :-)
okay, im out, bye!! :-)
Friday....I met some new kids, Rory, Melissa, Sal, Jason and Paulo. Theyre from essex, and theyre rich, and Sal's car is AWESOME! I was like, omg. so that of course made me be like "omg Sal's so cool, i love him!!!" being the drunkard i was. then i headed to jeffs house...and drank some more, and gave him some. now mind you, he hasnt drank since feb vacation, so the little he drank sent him flying, lol, it was iteresting.
sat, i went job hunting with my mom, it was fun bc we spent some time together, which is good :-) then we went shopping, and i got ready to go out. I went out w. chris...you guys know who im talking about, chris macdonald, yep. it was really fun. We met at little italy, then went to the movies. there we decided we didnt really want to see anything, then went to stella's (a pool hall for all of you out-of-towners) i beat him 2 times out of 4!! :-) i was proud, lol. then we went to josh and jeffs bc there were some people there, and we didnt really have nething else to do. it was cool, they all liked him. then he left and i dorve kaitlyn home, and then joana walks in all complaining about jeff and how he went to the movies w. some girl and i was like "wow, who cares??" and she was like "yeah, i dont care" and steven was like "you obviously do bc you wont shut up about it" then she started talking again about it, so i went out to my car and just sat there smoking...for about an hour and a half, then jeff rolled in, and i went to his car and we sat and talked and listened to music like we always do, then went to bill and bobs and got shakes and fries like i always do and went back to his house and watched a night at the roxbury. i dont know what to do, im glad i went out w. chris, bc i need to get off of jeff.
sunday, woke up to steven watching lesbian porn in the living room, where i was sleeping. it was quite the surprise. then jeff and i went to the store, came back, then him me kaitlyn steve and joel went to breakfast then we went shopping at the mall. then after that we dropped stev and kaitlyn off, and went back to jeffs house. he talked to joana then came in and was like "well, we should celebrate!" and i was like "celebrate what/" and he was like "me and joana not being together" hmmmm.
then i came home late, mom was mad, car was late, key in mailbox, not gonna get it for a while. boo dropped me off, and as i was walking to my house, josh drove by, so he came in, and i smoked.then we went to bev farms, so that was a nice long ride, and on the way back, we saw jeff at one stop, so we went there, and he was like "well, im going to kelcies" so, we met him at my house, played a little Spot, then josh left. Watched Identity and feel asleep in like the opening credits, lol.
skipped school today...he had a prject to get done, as did i, only being gay, we only worked on his. then joana called and yelled at him for spending so much time w. me, he didnt really care, but when he got off the phone, i was like "well, why does joana care if youre here if you guys are through?" and he was like "we were mad when we said that" so...no idea whats going on w. him again, but i dont really care, im not attatched to him nemore, i love him but i dont get wrapped up in him. He said as he left that he was gonna come by after work to pick up his paper, and he was like "i cant sleep over" and i was like "yeah, bc joana will bite your head off" and he was like "yeah" and then i said "that and we spent the last three nights together and thats not good bc people get attatched, like me" and he was like "yah, i know" i cant let myself get toointo him again, i cant get hurt again. Josh asked me last night "if jeff were ready to commit and he wanted to you w. you, what would you do?" and i was like "id drop everything for him bc i love him, but i know hes not ready, and im not going to sit around and wait for him" and its true. eh, i dont know.
im glad i had a good time w. chris, we're gonna chill again, :-)
okay, im out, bye!! :-)