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fuck everything. I always seem to be frustraded and mind bent when shit happens around me.. I take everything that happens to me or around me to a personal level and I take things way out of context.. I think my advice sucks but I seem to be giving it out alot lately.. not like anyone listens nor will returen the favor in some other way, not that I'm greedy and WANT something FoR SOMETHING.. I just don't know any more, Isuck of a lot of things and just wanna say fuck it.. I'm just gonna stay in my room the rest of summer and hope that things just pan out and odn't get worse.. I'm sick of how I feel all the time and how I always seem tobe goin up pissed or upset in the past month.. or just confused.. I hate being confused about thigns and like I said about getting in to geep with feelings then I should I guess I should learn to care less about things.. because the more I care about everything around me the more confused and or frustrated I get.. and I will say again its notl ike most of anything I say to try and make things better or change people will take into consideration.. so why do I speak.. I should just do nothing let things happen and say oh well it wasn't me.. because at or around this time of my thougts i'm thinking.. wow.. I'm a fuckin dumb ass.. so if I ever gave you advice and you thought you listend.. well just don't bother to remember or think about waht I say.. its pointless and causes nothing to happen or someons mind to think differently .. I have zero impact to people around me and it just suck.. it fuckin sucks.. so go die and fuck off.. im sick of always being left in the dust.. being the "last one standing" persay.. because someone always has someone better to trun to in the end.. I'm like the middle man people listen to but never really do anything about.. and always pick the left or right side of things.. and I just dont give to fucks. I'm sick of careing so much and giving a shit.. why should I always give two fuckin shits when it just does not matter.. I mean fuck you then.. ok I don't care either.. and I don't wanna care.. for Me NOTHING good has come from shareing.. why the fuck should I fuckin care.. I'm just yesterdays trash.. and I'm use to it.. hem.. wow.. fcuk everything..
On top of everything maybe I'm just talkin aoutta my ass and saying stupid shit because I'm goin on 3 days no sleep.. yay wow. I'm fuckin lame.. I guess I have to much on my fuckin mind.. and it must get to me more then I thought.. I mean I can just sit there and stay awake.. fuck people and there feelings, I'm sick of being last thought about or considered.. fuck it I don't care.. I'm gonna stay here and sleep till school starts.. and finish this year.. and if all plans full out NONE of YOU will see me in school much this year anyway except maybe 3 hours tops.. so fuck you and I dont have to deal with peoples shit.. I wanna move.. or just not interact with people. fuck you.. fuck alot of people.. but not all cause some I still do like.. and some make me happy.. I just can't seem to end a fuckin night happy.. I'm always goin to sleep.. tired.. or not sleep at all and just sit upset and mad..
But anyway wow.. I just typed a whole buch of shit that ABSOLUTELY no on cares about at all.. So I don't know why I eve typed it.. I guess i'm just venting and its gonna be fuckin lame and you will all call names or say I'm complainging.. well guess what this is livejournal and this is what its fuckin made for.. why, because REAL people don't wanna hear all this and its not like it would fuckin help me anyway.. I fuckin hate people and how they act and how the are ljust liers and cheats and fuckin dumb asses..
I HATE my feelings and how I always feel and the worst part is I can't control how I feel and it suck... feeling like crap and upset all the time in the night hours always just leave to more endless nights.. and endless days.. I hate MY Feelings and how I always seem to feel about people and thing.s.. sf
On top of everything maybe I'm just talkin aoutta my ass and saying stupid shit because I'm goin on 3 days no sleep.. yay wow. I'm fuckin lame.. I guess I have to much on my fuckin mind.. and it must get to me more then I thought.. I mean I can just sit there and stay awake.. fuck people and there feelings, I'm sick of being last thought about or considered.. fuck it I don't care.. I'm gonna stay here and sleep till school starts.. and finish this year.. and if all plans full out NONE of YOU will see me in school much this year anyway except maybe 3 hours tops.. so fuck you and I dont have to deal with peoples shit.. I wanna move.. or just not interact with people. fuck you.. fuck alot of people.. but not all cause some I still do like.. and some make me happy.. I just can't seem to end a fuckin night happy.. I'm always goin to sleep.. tired.. or not sleep at all and just sit upset and mad..
But anyway wow.. I just typed a whole buch of shit that ABSOLUTELY no on cares about at all.. So I don't know why I eve typed it.. I guess i'm just venting and its gonna be fuckin lame and you will all call names or say I'm complainging.. well guess what this is livejournal and this is what its fuckin made for.. why, because REAL people don't wanna hear all this and its not like it would fuckin help me anyway.. I fuckin hate people and how they act and how the are ljust liers and cheats and fuckin dumb asses..
I HATE my feelings and how I always feel and the worst part is I can't control how I feel and it suck... feeling like crap and upset all the time in the night hours always just leave to more endless nights.. and endless days.. I hate MY Feelings and how I always seem to feel about people and thing.s.. sf