isolation feels good and And elf named ron
Today was interesting. I kind of lost everything throughout the day and hit a "down" point somehow. I don't know why today wasn't as great as compared to all of my other days. Oh well. I was walking by myself around downtown for a long time. That helped me. I saw Karen, Steph and Aliyah walking .. and maybe some other people. I thought about saying hi and crap to them but I kind of just wanted to be by myself. Plus.. I knew it would be pretty boring with Aliyah.
nothing much else to say except for..
Isolation feels good.
Maybe I'll add a little bit more to this entry. Over the weekend I was looking through Danny's old blog and found some of my "poetry" .. if you even want to call it that. Geez.. what the hell was I thinking!? Oh well.. it made Danny laugh and feel better at the time so I guess it was worth it. Don't even wonder what the hell I was thinking. It was a long time ago.. simply it.
an elf named ron
another poem by lauren gesilva
inspired by danny because he was sad
i remember our long walks
we used to have
these serious talks
you used to be so smooth and sly
little did i know it
but you were bi
no wonder why we saw the movie
uptown girls
and you thought it was so groovy
i cant believe what you took away from me
that was my
goddamn virginity
it was just 2 inches erect
you used to tell me things such as
"your ass and tits are so perfect"
now you tell me things like
"get off my car you bitch!!!"
and "youre a damn dike!!!"
i want to faint
at the sight of your handsome face
i thought you were such a saint
now i have to forget
all the times that you held my hand
because it was all just one big bet
i miss the way you used to slide
your hand on the railing
i really wish i hadnt cried
in front of your face
remember our song
it was by mase
i dont care if you slapped me
your girl
is who i want to be
i need you by my side
when you left
it felt like i died
now all i have is masturbation
i even looked at the back
of the old gas station
for our old used condoms
to find there were
a bunch of bums
who were using them
then i thought to myself
i dont need you..i found someone better
hes a sweet person who treats me dearly ..an elf
im glad ive moved on
to an elf
named ron