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i should stop moaning. any of what I just posted doesn't matter. I lost perspective.
I was looking at books on amazon.com and read the beginning of one which I would like to read, but I think it would upsetting. The first 3 pages or so detail an execution in France. Although it was barbaric and drawn out and tortured, it was a very normal way for people to be executed. And people have been killed in worse ways, I'm sure.
So instead of monaing about how I'll be too hot, I should be and will be grateful for the sunshine and how beautiful it is.
Instead of moaning about being poor I'm grateful for knowing that if I need anything I can have it, for knowing that my 'poorness' which just means not being able to go grocery shopping for a few days will end.
And I'm able to look at books and read and understand. Not just because I'm still in a society which lets me but because I'm healthy and functioning.
So right now I feel very... lucky? blessed? something like that. I feel grateful, I think.
I was looking at books on amazon.com and read the beginning of one which I would like to read, but I think it would upsetting. The first 3 pages or so detail an execution in France. Although it was barbaric and drawn out and tortured, it was a very normal way for people to be executed. And people have been killed in worse ways, I'm sure.
So instead of monaing about how I'll be too hot, I should be and will be grateful for the sunshine and how beautiful it is.
Instead of moaning about being poor I'm grateful for knowing that if I need anything I can have it, for knowing that my 'poorness' which just means not being able to go grocery shopping for a few days will end.
And I'm able to look at books and read and understand. Not just because I'm still in a society which lets me but because I'm healthy and functioning.
So right now I feel very... lucky? blessed? something like that. I feel grateful, I think.